Ramblings and Thoughts of An Urban Yuppie

Before i say goodbye

2011-12-27T03:05:00.000+08:00

Listening to Adele's rendition of "Lovesong" is mind settling, soul searching. The perfect mood to just relax the mind and start writing down what has been in the mind for so long. I'm at the place where i was at last year. Never knew that I would be here again. Maybe there's a reason for me being here. 4 more days till the end of 2011. While most are busy enjoying xmas and the holiday season or some might be busy listing down all their wish lists and resoulutions for 2012, I on the other hand had the sudden urge to just reflect at all that things that happened thes past months. What have i achieved so far? Did i managed to tick everything on my resolutions lists for this year?. I know that i managed to tick a few. Not an easy task as I've to endure the challenges, twists and turns just to be able to get the resolution or wishlists ticked on that piece of paper. Bitter sweet moments applied as well.

The most important event that happened to me was me submitting my Msc thesis. How I have gone through my 3 1/2 years of postgraduate life just to get it done. Big challenge i must say. I even had to defer 1 semester due family reasons. I even had the thought of just quitting. I was quite amazed on how I managed to get it done, the final writing in 1 month while I was really down with my breakup, while mom and dad was away. Maybe i was blessed enough to have people who really cared about me thoughout the whole ordeal. Got a part time job after that. And 1 week after that, my granny passed away. She went to soon. She has always wanted to be at my wedding day. I remember how she described on how "kecoh2" would my wedding be. What i have now to remind me of her is the memories we had and also the gold bracelet and diamond ring she gave me. You've gone 2 months nenek, may your soul rest in peace. Al-Fatihah.

In between all that, my running and cycling events and also my short trips to some of the places in the world have always "distracted" me from thinking of the unnecessary. I've also made my short holidays as a "healthful'' one by participating in running events. Even though not as far as a marathon distance, well 10km is also a distance worth running. I've been blessed with understanding parents. Eventhough mom is always "membebe" at me on why do i have to go so far for running events. Hatyai and Singapore seems far ka? Hahaha, dekat border Malaysia je kot those two countries. I have friends and aquaintences that have traveled as far as HK, Berlin, New York and even Paris. Anyway, earlier this year I started my travel adventure to Phuket with a dear friend, (I won this in a some magazine contest, yes it was really worth it). Came back and started participating in various running events. From running the 10km at Hatyai and doing my 3rd half Marathon in Singapore which i managed to get my personal best. In between that was running mostly in KL events. Oh, Ipoh and Penang too and not the forget my 1st Triathlon relay in Port Dickson. Real fun that one. After the Tri event, i got a road bike for my 26th, eh silap, 27th birthday birthday present. Less then a month of cycling and training, I registered myself in Malakoff's duathlon event. 3km run-13km cycle-3km run. It was a good experience.

As I'm blogging this, I'm still reflecting on what has happened around me and in me in the past months despite already having in mind on what my new resolutions are. I hope and pray that next year will be kinder to me. Looking forward to it.

p/s: To blog more on my running+cycling+travelling adventures. Resolution #2

Here I am again

2011-10-30T23:24:00.000+08:00

It has been awhile. Lots of ups and downs. More downs in the past few months. But i believe that everything happens for a reason. Good or bad. The good thing is that i learned to be more stronger at heart, being more independent and responsible over things. However, the bad part is that i sometimes could not handle things or situations well enough but i guess that i will so in time.

Oh, i have finished my thesis. yeay!. waiting for my viva. not so yeay. Got a job at Kumon as a math teacher. interesting. My mom got me a road bicycle. Running routine has been slow lately but yeah, im still running as i have to prepare myself for my second half marathon in Singapore (Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon event). Still depressed over the lost of my grandma.

Yes, i will start rambling more. Will make a point to do so.

A wish For you

2011-07-15T11:27:00.000+08:00

1 year has passed. 1 year of friendship built

1 year of witnessing of your ups and down in life and how you are strong enough to through everything all by yourself

Happy many returns of the day to you . May all your dreams come true. Insya-Allah. Amin

Sacrifice

2011-06-23T10:45:00.000+08:00

aku tak faham bila my own family tak faham what it feels like to withdraw from a running event. Yes, i decided to sacrifice my time and all to withdraw for my next 21km event due to family probs. Kerana FAMILY gak aku sanggup sacrifice untuk tak lari in this Sunday's event. Diorang cakap aku memperbesarkan benda yang kecik. Yelah, korang tak training sampai nak demam memang la korang tak tau how it feels like to withdraw from something. Dah la kena prepare untuk oral presentation untuk conference next week. Plan aku semua dah jadi kelam kabut sebab kena bantu family. OK ar, nak pegi jumpa Prof plak. harap2 tak banyak masalah sebab seadanya otak dah serabut

Yang Sebenarnya

2011-06-08T23:08:00.000+08:00

Heh.

Eh hai.

Rasanya macam dah sebulan lebih tak merajinkan diri update blog. Nak kata takde cerita. Rasanya banyak je kot. Cerita pasal study, cinta, lari, frust tertonggeng semua ada la. YANG SEBENARNYA, bukan tak nak update, cuma takde mood la *alasan*. haha. So since malam ni agak free untuk update ape yang terjadi dan bakal terjadi sepanjang sebulan aku buat tak tau kat kewujudan blog ni aku. Baca blog orang sangat la rajin tapi blog sendiri dibiarkan bosan.

So anyway, YANG SEBENARNYA, malam ni sepatutnya siap kan powerpoint presentation thesis untuk supervisory committee meeting dan untuk conference presentation untuk MASO hujung bulan ni tapi macam agak malas. Nak kata tak start buat, dah 80% complete. Cuma tinggal part discussion and part2 edit-mengedit je. Tapi takpe esok boleh sambung buat balik. Thesis aku alhamdulillah, so far ok. Supervisor2 tengah check. So harap2 takde la masalah sangat lagi. Penat beb nak writing ni. Kekadang melangok depan laptop ni berjam-jam pun tak mungkin boleh dapat 1 page of write up yang berkualiti. Belakang citer, bila dah ketandusan idea and bosan, mula la layan fb and dok surf internet jer. Paper untuk publish pun dah accepted cuma editor soh buat some corrections here and there. Tu pun tak betulkan lagi sebab nak siapkan power point presentation dulu. Aku ni jenis yang tak boleh multi-task sangat. Nanti otak macam berserabut. Tapi macam mana pun, by end of the day benda2 ni semua kena settle before the dateline, Insya-Allah. Tu citer pasal academic.

Cerita cinta? Hmm, biasala ada ups and downs. Tapi bulan lepas memang down habislah siap frust menonggeng la. Tapi setelah berbincang, timbang tara. Rasa-rasanya aku dah dapat jawapan yang pasti. Mudah-mudahan lepas ni semuanya akan baik2 sahaja. AMIN. Ok, cerita ni aku save the best for last. Sekian. Haha

Activity running aku so far ok. Last month aku ngn geng Chap Ayam join event running kat Hatyai. Aku lari 13km je. Tak mentally strong and fit enough untuk lari full marathon. Trip sangat best la sampai aku lupa objective pegi sana adalah untuk berlari. So terasa seperti lupa diri sikit masa kat sana. Performance haritu pun macam hampeh je. Tak focus langsung. Sangat bengong. Patutnya dah pegi oversea tu, try la buat personal best, tapi hampeh. But its ok, I enjoyed my running trip. Harap2 adalah lagi trip2 macam ni. Memang enjoy la ;). Next event plak SCKLM. Aku register half marathon. Harap2 boleh perform better then energizer nite run few months back. Tinggal 2 minggu je lagi. So training session pun harus la lebih sikit. Ni pun lately ni banyak training sendiri. Dulu rajin gak turun shah alam training ngn geng2 shah alam. Bukan tak nak pegi, kekadang ada je benda yang menghalang aku pegi ke sana. Takpelah, janji training sendiri dari tak training langsung and since dah masuk gym, dapat gak la training ngn PT yang ada kat sana. Lepas SCKLM plak, aku akan ke Ipoh untuk event Ipoh International Run (10km). Register RM10 je. ok la kot, pastu end of july plak aku join event PD International Triathlon. Team Relay. Macam hebat sangat la kan aku ni. Tapi YANG SEBENARNYA nak experience benda2 ni. Dah minat kan. Nasib baik la takde beskal sendiri. Kalau tak confirm aku register as solo tapi masuk sprint je la. *angan2*. Adoi, sejak masuk running2. Byk betul duit aku belanja. Keje takde, tapi duit keluar banyak. Pengsan la macam ni. Now pun dah start swimming. Mak aku pun dah bising2 soh aku slow down sikit. Tapi seriously, memang pakai duit banyak. Lepas ni event2 tertentu je aku akn register. No more membabi-buta register tu sebab by end of the day aku gak yang sengkek. Aku ingat lagi dulu yang running ni is cheap. Tapi tidak sama skali. Bila dah start lari, nak plak beli kasut yang best, baju yang striking. Yela, berlari pun nak gak macam diva kan. Haih, macam2 la. Lari tak laju mana pun gaya je lebih. Haha :p. Dah minat kan :D. So moral of the story. Untuk mendapatkan financial status yang kukuh. CEPAT LA CARI KEJE. Hm, keje pun susah nak dapat. Mintak keje kat college lama pun tak dapat. Sedih doh. Hmm.. nasib :(

YANG SEBENARNYA, ada lagi benda nak aku blog. Nak cerita pasal the people i met since i started running. Setiap individu yang aku kenal sepanjang perjalanan aku dalam dunia running, semuanya unique and interesting in their own ways. Secara tak langsung membuka mata aku pada banyak persoalan dan perspektif dalam kehidupan ini. Haha. Jeng3!. Will definitely blog about it soon enough sebabnya mata pun macam dah mengantuk and esok kena bangun awal untuk pegi training. Babai!

In the end

2011-05-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

It ended up with a heartbreak

Dear god, please give me the strength to go through this rocky road.

From ZERO to HERO

2011-04-26T09:40:00.001+08:00

I attended a running clinic/circuit training organized by (sila click link ----->) FROM ZERO TO HERO this morning as part of my preparation for my second half marathon. Yes, i telah berjaya berlari sejauh 21km during the Energizer Night Run last Saturday and manage to clocked 2 hours and 43minutes. Not bad la for a first timer kan. So yea, main reason of me attending this clinic/circuit training is to improve myself in all forms sebab tak berapa puas hati dengan ENR haritu. Lari pun tengah injured so pace pun kena slow sikit. Itupun dah kena tegur dengan mama and my aunty untuk jangan lari malam tu. Ishh. Mana bleh... dah bayar kot. I told them macam cara sekali pun i kena sampai gak kat finishing line first half marathon i tu. And i did it! Ok cerita sikit la pasal experience ENR tu. Summary la eh so here goes...

Sampai2 je Sepang Circuit kena bayar RM10 untuk parking. Memang cekik darah. Amik kesempatan betul. Nak jalan ke circuit tu dah la jauh pastu kena plak lalu entrance yang sangat kecik rasa macam nak pengsan je lalu situ dengan the amount of people yang keluar masuk route tu (bayangkan kalau duduk dalam train atas bas yang penuh. sekian). Nak amik headlight pun dah macam pasar ikan. Gila tak bertamadun orang2 ni. Tsk Tsk. Nak letak bag kat counter kena beratur punya lah lama sebab 2 orang je yang in-charge (gila tak organized). Nasib baik la sempat nak warm up sebelum race. First 10km or running went well. Every water station i stop untuk minum air mineral or isotonic drink. I ni cepat peluh and bila berpeluh maka keluar la juga segala sodium and potassium yang membuatkan kaki i cepat cramp bila berlari (development of lactic acid yang cepat pun satu hal la kan). Nasib baik gak la i bawah GU CHOMPS which i kunyah a few hundred meters towards every water station sebab lepas kunyah gummies tu kena minum air. Alhamdulillah membantu and my first 10km went great. Mental focus went kelam kabut sikit bila lari dalam Sepang Circuit tu itself. I ni jenis tak boleh lari satu tempat berulang-ulang. Masuk je second loop, terus hilang focus and the last 4km tu dah rasa cramp. Dah takleh push. Rasa lagi down bila kawan-kawan dah start potong. Macam mana pun tetap habis run tu dengan masa 2 jam 43 minit. (First 16km i dapat clocked in masa 1 jam 54 minit). Lepas lari tak dapat medal, goodie bag pun tak dapat sebab dengar kata macam ada kekecohan berlaku. Tapi yang paling best certificate, medal and goodie bag organizer akan post ke rumah siap bagi refund lagi sebab orang complain pasal the event. So basically my first half marathon ni kira my experimental try out la. hehe

Ok, back to the ZERO to HERO story. The clinic/ running circuit was conducted by Mr Mark Williams. Elite runner ni. Rugi kalau tak join. So one week before the event i dah register. So yea, pagi tu pegi sorang2. Sampai2 je Mr Williams dah start his talk. Toleh kiri kanan tapi tak nampak any familiar face (that morning runner2 hebat pegi beraksi kat Bidor and Metta Run). Dah half way thru the talk, nampak plak Edan, Abg Shariff, Adznam, Muaz and and Afiq. Ha, cantek la tu, ada gak geng AnR Shah Alam yang datang. Started running at 7.30am. Time tengah lari rasa perut tak berapa best (tak makan dengan betul sebab the day before bedal mee kari, pulut ngan rendang and nasi dagang. Haha, ntah pape. Lesson learnt!). So nak lari pun takde mood dah tapi redah gak la sebab nak praktis my running technique. Pastu nampak plak the guys dok lari laju gila. Haih so cannot kejar ok. Mengah tengok dioang lari ni. Tetiba plak tengah2 lari Mr Williams dok berdiri satu spot nak tengok cara larian runners yang hadir. So i pun lari la macam biasa. So while running towards him , i could see that he was observing my running technique. And you know what he said? "beautiful running technique!, keep it up!". Wei! tetiba i kembali motivated ok!. Tak penah2 la orang comment pasal my running technique. Ni ELITE RUNNER yang comment ok!. I felt so motivated again. Kekadang i rasa down sebab takde sape yang nak observe and correct my running form. Kekadang fikir betul ke tak cara aku berlari ni. But yea, Mr Williams saw it and commented about it. But i took it in a very positive way. More to learn and more to practice to improve better.

With the real HERO, Mr Mark Williams

These guys here are FAST runners ok! Especially yang kedua dari kanan tu :p

With the upcoming HEROES and HERO-ine *coughs*

Lepas run 4 loop (around 8.8km), sempat tanya Mr Williams on running tips and what plan to follow as a preparation for my 2nd half marathon. I cakap kat M.W first tapi terkantoi plak bila i cakap i dah lari HM masa ENR ahah. But i told him that ENR was just my experimental race to just experience the feeling of running half marathon. Boleh gitew? LOL.

Asking for valuable tips ;) and he said " Just stick to the plan and you'll be fine"

Next running event will be this weekend. AnR breakfast run on Saturday and SCKL running clinic on Sunday. Both events will be held at Kepong Metropolitan Park. So determine to be better as the tag line goes " FROM ZERO TO HERO" . But in this context it's HEROINE la kan bagi saya. Heh

See you all on the REAL race day peeps! Everyone are HEROES in their own ways. Believe me ;)

Nausea attack

2011-04-14T10:59:00.000+08:00

Heh.

What happened to me was last night was kinda dramatic. After 1 year plus of running/training i had a nausea attack after running 14km with the other team mates of AnR Shah Alam. The first 7km was great. I ran at my own pace since the pain at the quads was still there. Kena tinggal jauh la juga with the others yang hebat2 tu. But luckily there was Hafiz to accompany me. Dah la lari malam kan. So macam seriau la gak kan. So yea, the first 7km went fine for a "siput injured" like me. LOL

Final 7km didn't go well for me. After running about 2km, i was experiencing muscle cramps atvthe abdomens then it hit the calves. Funny thing that my injured quads was feeling not too bad. At that moment I was feeling nauseous. Still standing strong, i continued running/ walking till i reached at the nearest petrol station nearby. Thank god that Amin (our escort) was there and i told him that i could not run further. So i naik la motor budak si Amin ni. Haha. Kelakar. Dah la first time naik motor. Macam best la plak kan. I asked him to drop me 500m away from the roundabout near the stadium so that i could just walk back to Extreme Park (the point of where we started)

OK, here comes the dramatic part. I was feeling disappointed at that moment. I was thinking a lot that spur moment. Why am i running this far? Why am i TORTURING myself to this extreme although I'm still injured? and why the hell did i registered for Half M marathon? why this and why that. I just felt down looking at how others run so fast. But by the end of the run i realized its impossible to be running with 3/4km per minute pace like others but it is possible to run with my own pace. I went home early. Rasa cramps all over. Rasa pening. Rasa Oren (menda la aku mengarut ni) and rasa macam2. I felt weird. Driving home felt like an ordeal for me. I pulled over at the nearest petrol station as the nausea became worse (guess what happened la kalau dah loya semacam kan?). Tak penah la i rasa macam ni. I have trained as far as 22km but nothing of this happened. I guess that i was properly nourished yesterday.

Today i got up feeling fine. Alhamdulillah. Didn't sleep well tho last night. Gonna start nourishing myself with good carbs and sufficient proteins and as well as to motivate myself to just have fun during the race and just run at my best. As i normally motivate myself. My Race, My Pace, My Ace. Hoh, better indoctrinate that in my head till the real deal is O.V.E.R

Wish me luck ;)

p/s: walau ape terjadi semalam, team mates saya memang terbaik. i love my AnR Shah Alam Team

That day

2011-04-07T20:09:00.000+08:00

You have changed since that day. I think your reflection has blown away.

You have changed since that day. And still wonder why till today

You have changed since that day. May i possibly no why?

You have changed since that day. I think i will slowly walk away.

suka duka

2011-03-20T17:26:00.000+08:00

SUKA

Dapat finishers medal masa KEC Unity Run pagi tadi. Rasanya macam dapat top 20 (kot). 7km in 42 minutes walaupun berlari dengan keadaan quads yang tak mengizin kan. Tertarik2 muscle (part tu tak berapa suka)

Dapat makan sedap harini. Breakfast yang terbaek kat CHONG KOK KOPITIAM kat Klang.

Belasah makan mushroom swiss kat kat BK tengah hari tadi.

DUKA

Kawan mungkin boleh makan kawan. We might never know what their intentions are

Kena rehab dari lari for few days kot. Quads muscles sakit betul. Perlu tuam dengan ais. Mungkin juga kena pegi swimming untuk kekalkan stamina since rasanya memang macam tak akan berlari untuk beberapa hari. Secret training yang lain perlu stop kejap kot. Ceh, secret la sangat :p. Tapi ENR tak lama lagi. Boleh ke ni?

yang terjadi semalam dan harini

2011-03-17T23:56:00.000+08:00

Macam biasa, sehari sebelum nak jumpa supervisor memang la kecut perut, goyang lutut. 5 malam i bertapa dalam bilik sebab nak siapkan discussion thesis. tapi hasilnya takde la sampai berpuluh2 page tapi jenuh sebab i have to meticulously read each printed journal in order to write chapter 5. sampai naik juling mata pandang screen laptop and printed journal articles tu. *ayat nak gak dramatic kan?*.Although semalam tak sepatutnya keluar pegi mana-mana pun, tapi i memang tekad nak siapkan apa yang patut untuk "dihidangkan" pada yang bijaksana. Tapi kaki memang gatal nak keluar berlari. Maklumlah, dah sebulan lebih tak training betul-betul. Main2 je. Pegi training pun seminggu sekali. So memang semalam memang bersemangat gila nak lari. Sanggup turun pegi training session walaupun masih tinggal sipi-sipi thesis yang perlu disiapkan. Tapi hati memang puas la. tapi tak berapa puas la sebenarnya sebabnya bila lari terasa macam berat. terasa kembang macam kentang. tu la akibatnya bertapa didalam bilik untuk buat thesis. exercise memang confirm kurang. makan rasanya mcm biasa. mungkin sebab stress yang menyebabkan hormon cortisol meningkat dalam badan yang membuatkan metabolisme badan berkurangan. tak caya? pegi google :p. So lepas ni perlu happy selalu. Supaya metabolisme badan tidak terganggu dengan kehadiran hormon cortisol yang melampau. tapi dah diet balik selama seminggu lebih ni ada la hasilnya sikit. perlu teruskan usaha!. Energizer nite run tak sampai sebulan lagi maaa. dah ler register masuk 21km punya. hahaha.

tu cerita semalam la kan.

I reached uni early. my meeting with the SV was at 10am. Went up 5 minutes late sebab saje la kan nak tunjuk macam rebel sikit. Meeting habis around 11.30am. borak2 sampai sejam, check keje aku setengah jam je. SV i ni memang sangat suka borak2. layankan je la. Pastu tetiba kluar plak citer pasal Facebook

Dr: my undergrad students seems to not understand the subject that i teach. i dont know what seems to be the problem. those who failed i suruh diorang datang jumpa i tau

Cik Fira: pAstu dr tanya ape kat diorang *dengan nada kepochinya*

Dr: I asked them "how long do u spend on the internet esp on FB?" and and they told me that they only spend 2 hours in a day. pastu ada lagi dia citer. tapi cam panjang la plak kan. so yada yada yada.

Cik Fira: u know what? i penah tau deactivate my fb for like 1 week and i buat keje agak cepat la. i think u should tell your students to do that as well especially nak dekat exam

Dr: Yaya, good idea. *ceh, konon macam bangga la kan idea yang baik diterima SV*. I think you should do the same too la Fira for a least a month to put full concentration on your final work.

*terkedu sekejap*. hahaha. haaa! tuu diaaaa!.padan muka. sape suruh pandai2 bagi idea cenggitu. ha, amik kau fira. bukan setakat seminggu kena suruh deactivate tapi SEBULAN. MOLEK SGT!

tu cerita tengahari tadi, petang tadi plak pegi meeting ngan sorang gym owner ni. dia mintak i buat talk pasal healthy eating. mak aiii... task besar tu. tapi insya-Allah boleh buat. Date dah set. so kena prepare ape yang patut je. Lepas meeting tu sempat la gak lari geli2 kejap lepas hujan benti.

Tadi, pegi dinner ngan gang2 lari. pegi makan ketam kat fatty crab. belanja our friend for his belated birthday.was my 1st time there. since dia dah banyak kali hint nak makan fatty crab ni, so all of us decided to have dinner sama-sama kat sana. dah kenyang makan, pastu si bday boy terlajak belanja plak kitorang makan durian yang belanja dia makan ketam. makan durian sorang sikit sebab masing2 terasa nak makan. yang penting semua enjoy semua happy.

alamak, batt laptop dah nak kong plak. till next post yall!. esok nak kena bangun pagi sebab nak pegi berlari. harap2 cuaca OK ;)

sleepless nights

2011-03-10T18:21:00.001+08:00

note:

saya tak merokok dan tak berapa suka minum kopi sebab kadang-kadang kopi buat saya mengantuk. haha

Another round of sleepless nights resumes today as i got THE CALL from my Supervisor's PA earlier today stating that HE WANTED to see me next week with my final chapter. Goyang lutut babe!. Ni pun baru habis betulkan results chapter. Nasib baik la final chapter tu ada la hasil dia sikit masa buat paper to publish haritu so apa yang ada dulu boleh la nak masukkan dalam draft thesis. Tapi serious goyang lutut. Puas dah nangis sebab rasa stress tahap dewa punya. Siap message Jason (rakan seperjuangan under SV yang sama) ngadu nasib. Thank god that Jason was really supportive. Bagus student PhD ni, optimistic sentiasa walaupun dia sendiri stress sebab sampai sekarang tak start buat data collection lagi. Anyway, after reading all his messages i felt calm sebab fikir balik tinggal last chapter je kan? U CAN DO IT FIRA!. Thanks jason for making me feel sane again. Haha. *dramatic*. Haih, kalau buat PhD tak tau la kan. Mmg tobat tak nak buat la kot research2 ni? Hmm, cakap je kan? Kekadang dalam hidup ni yang kita tak nak tu la yang kita akan buat yer tak?. Ok ok, cerita pasal nk buat PhD sangat tak relevent buat masa ni.

Disebabkan ini gak, i akan puasa FB kejap. Takde la sampai nak de-activate account sebab kekadang bila kawan2 post info on running ke ape kang tak tahu benda plak. Puasa FB tu maknanya adalah refrain diri dari kusyuk skodeng page kawan2 sampai leka tak buat keje *kantoi disitu* hahah. So yea, i will stil get notifications on whatever is happening on fb thru my blackberry. So ok, nak meluahkan perasaan je sebenarnya. kalau citer kat my parents confirm la kena lecture and sgt tak sanggup nak dengar.

Baiklah! Nak sambung menaip. Tapi kejap lagi la sambung. Rasa lapar plak. BYE!

From a far

2011-03-07T20:36:00.000+08:00

I'm looking at you from a far right now

And there will be a chance that you will just drift away one day

Forgetting and leaving everything behind

Kacau Bilau

2011-03-02T10:16:00.000+08:00

Rasa macam kacau-bilau sikit perasaan tu minggu ni. Banyak je benda yang rasa tak kena. Semalam pegi stadium sebab nak tukar angin, tukar environment untuk training. Pegi tempat baru, orang tak kepochi and bothered sangat with what with do. Paling kuat pun diorang akan bisik2 among themselves nak tau sape kita. Tak kisah la tu. Sampai stadium semalam pun around 5.40pm. Thanks la d1 sebab sudi bagi i ikut u pegi training kat stadium tu. Tapi bila sampai je, terus rasa macam tak nak lari tapi nak tengok orang berlari and observe orang training je. Hahah. Yelakan, kat stadium tu semua pun ala athlete. Sape la i ni kan compared to them. Anyway, lari la gak kat track tu dalam 5 round and at the same time buat sikit core and leg exercises. Pastu dapat la gak buat speed run kejap dalam 100m like that and akibatnya quadriceps muscle belah kanan ku (front of leg, above the knee) terasa sakitnya. Ha padan muka, sape la suruh buat aksi memecut tu?. Bila berjalan terasa the pull. Tak tau la kalau petang karang boleh buat ke tak tempo run masa training session nanti. Hmm, belasah je la kot.

Tu satu hal la, yang buat jiwa kacau bilau ni pun sebab hari2 mengadap thesis sampai rasa nak muntah. kekadang boleh mengadap tapi tak buat ape2 pun. Kekadang baca satu paragraph pun boleh sampai setengah hari gone. Focus tu dah hilang. Mungkin sebab dah terlalu lama buat Masters ni sampaikan nak pegi fakulti pun segan.Yelah ibarat hidup segan mati tak mahu. Tapi macam mana pun KENA habis kan gak.

Pagi tadi je dah ada orang buat i panas hati dengan statement yang mamat ni lontarkan padaku kat YM . Dah la bagi comment kat FB aku yang aku rasa menguji kesabaran i gak la. Tolong la jangan poyos sangat boleh tak. I memang respect you sebagai orang yang lebih tua dari i but please la don't use age as a medium to say whatever you want. There are certain things are best left unspoken. Tak perlu berlagak macam you know it all. Baik diam2 je. Bak kata orang2 tua. "diam-diam ubi berisi". Kalau yer pun nak share knowledge ada cara dia. Tapi tolong la jangan BRAG. Sikit2 boleh la tapi kalau dah slalu2 tu jemu plak aku nak mendengar.

Kawan-kawan rapai I sekarang ramai dah kawin. Ramai yang bz prepare nak kawin and ada gak baru je nak masuk alam percintaan yang baru. Tetiba i rasa i lost them already. Tetiba semua macam senyap je and tetiba dari tiap2 malam ada kat YM tunggu masing2 nak online, sekarang kalau online pun appear INVI je. *yelakan, nak chatting ngan orang tersayang je kan, tak nk diganggu*. Dan tetiba i tersedar yang umur makin meningkat dan rakan2 rapat i yang lain yang kurang outgoing dari i ni dah bz untuk cari pasangan hidup. Aku ni nama je ada pasangan tapi still tak jadi ape2. Mungkin jodoh tak sampai lagi. Takpela, i'll just wait patiently. Sementara masih tak terikat lagi, baik la i do things that i love and enjoy and be around people who shares the same interests that i have and also spend more time with my family. Tu je la yang i rasa paling afdal buat masa sekarang ni.

Jap lagi ada lunch ngan bakal pengantin. Macam bachelorette party la tapi si baka pengantin ni nak lain sikit. Dia nak picnic lunch. Maklumla kan kat area UPM ni banyak tempat2 picnic yang best (tapi lupa plak nk bawak camera). So follow je la request dia. Janji semua happy.

One after another

2011-02-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

Fuhh!. What a weekend! My weekends had never been this hectic before but it was all worth it by end of the day.

Saturday:

KL HERITAGE EXPLORACE

I teamed up with my sahabat 8 tahun, Zalekha Yazid to participate in this event. Since I’ve never tried out this type of event so i guess why not just give it a shot. 200 hundred teams were involved in this event. Even members from the Chap Ayam Community were also there to enjoy the fun. The Explorace kicked-start at the KL Tower. 15 check-points and only 5 hours to finish the race. We were required to complete the task given at every check points and each task done were given points and a PASS chop to indicate that we’ve successfully completed it and the next clue will be given out. Check-points were from KL Tower- TM Muzium- Bangunan Sultan Abdul Samad (here we were required to the lion dance, kelakar sangat)-Bangunan Dayabumi (complete the puzzle task, this one so kacang haha)- Dataran Merdeka (task failed as we were required to balance up a kayu bendera on our forehead)- Bangunan DBKL (pop quiz)- Jalan Masjid India ( this task susah gila ok, kena ikat bunga melur kat tali. Serious stress. Nasib baik uncle florist tu bagi 8 markah. Hehe)- Wisma Yakin (had to dress up in Baju Melayu complete with sampan and songkok ok!)-Heritage Row (ni senang jer, angkat kacang tanah guna chopstick)-MATTIC (pop quiz and buat tarian ngajat) and FINALLY back to KL Tower for the bonus round which was to do the Abseiling. Nevertheless, our team managed to finish the race before the qualifying time. Tapi macam tak puas hati gak la as i think ramai yang main tipu kot. Haha. Biasa la kan bila dah banyak team yang berkeliaran kat KL tu macam anak2 ayam. Dah ler pakai baju oren kan? Hahah. Pastu dah la start lambat and the weather was REALLY HOT! Anyway, the winning price was RM1000 cash, IPAD and hamper kalau tak silap i. Congrats to Shahrul and Mahirah for getting 7^th place. Hebat betul team ni!. Diorang dapat hamper and RM200 cash. Duit diorang menang tu diorang belanja we all (ruby, sab, kak lily, kak ida, aini, Miss E, Wan and team mate (tak ingat nama) and Fairul makan kat Ampang Yong Tau Foo. Thanks korang! . Semoga murah rezeki. AMIN.

Hm, lepas ni nak try masuk AMAZING RACE ASIA plak la. HAHAHA ;)

Sunday

ZIGTECH 48-hour TREADMILL CHALLENGE

Supertired with the explorace event but i had to drag my body out of bed this morning to get ready for the next challenge. 2 hari berturut-turut kot bangun super awal. Mana la taknya kan. Siap2 je, nk start kereta my dad Tanya “ha nk pegi mana plak lagi tu”. “Oh ada treadmill challenge kat OU pa”. Jawabnya “ok, take care”. Ha, tak banyak citer. Sgt supportive papaku. Haha. So sampai sana pun awal although my slot was at 9am. Pegi awal sikit pun sebab nak tengok participant sorang ni. I heard he was really good. DAMN ! he was. He was running at the constant pace of 14.8km/hour for the 1^st 45minutes pastu dia paced-up till the end. A friend of mine was already in the lead but unfortunately he lost the challenge to this guy. Didn’t get his name though. Tapi dia memang FIT tahap max. I spoke to his dad and his dad told me this was his 1^st time competing on a treadmill. Kalau dah on treadmill laju, kalau on road? Memang macam road-runner la kan? Ala..speedy Gonzalez tu. Hahah

OK. I started 9am sharp. Oh, lupa plak nak cakap, challengers had to wear the zigtech shoes provided by Reebok. I tk berapa suka la. Kinda berat plus the its more suitable for runner with normal to high arched feet. I have flat foot. Flat macam kaki itik. So tak sesuai. Tapi nak tak nak, kena la also follow their rule. Started the run with a 7.0km/hour pace. Pastu naik gradually. Rasa penat. Slowkan sikit. Tak sampai 5 minutes dan berpeluh macam ntah pape. Panas kot. Management OU tak pasang aircond. Memang mental kena kuat. Yela, lari at one place kot. Memang bosan. Dalam my mind dok fikir pasal benda2 and makanan2 best je. Hahaha. 10 minutes left i increased my pace to 8.8km/hour then the final 3 minutes I increased it till 9.8/km hour. That was the maximum speed i went. It was my FIRST time running on a treadmill ½ hour straight. I think I did pretty well. Oh Zal Yazid was also in this challenge. She did well herself. Congrats bibik!

Pretty tired right now. But the runs/trainings doesn’t stop here. I’m on the runner’s HIGH right now. Haha.Looking forward for next Sunday’s Adination Breakfast run. But I guess I'll take a day off from running tomorrow. Jangan marah ok D1! hehe ;)

Will upload pics later. Lembab plak internet connection malam ni

1km further

2011-02-19T14:34:00.000+08:00

Ok, a friend of mine BBM-ed me yesterday and told me that the visit to PERNIM was canceled due to certain circumstances and he asked me if i would like to join a 7.5km run organized by PTPL KL SENTRAL. So i said yes I've not kick start the year with any running events. It was a last minute invitation and I knew that I'm not so well prepared for this as the last time i trained was on Wednesday and no running since then. But i told myself to just give it a shot.

Seven of my SUPERJUNIORS from MSU also registered themselves for this run. All pun hebat ni. Basically all of them were in the TOP 10. Hebat tak?. D1, kalau you masuk event ni confirm la dapat 1st ;). So yea, my run started pretty fine but sayang la i didn't start running way front. Haih, lesson learnt!. Next time kena stand depan-depan. Oh lupa pulak nak cakap, route running adalah from *dewan DBKL mana entah* kat Little India (Brickfields)- Taman Seputeh and back to the starting point.

Anyway, first 4.5km was fine although kena run hill route. Started feeling dehydrated reaching 5.5km. Weather was already hot and the sun was "smiling" brightly already at that time. Kept running till i reached the 2nd last check point. I was thrilled. I know that 2nd place would be mine. But unfortunately. i got lost along the way, i ran the wrong route. I was frustrated at the point. I realized that i ran 1km more then i was supposed to. *mungkin terlalu terpesona dengan keadaan kat Little India yang meriah tu kot sampai sesat route. haha * Eventually, i managed to get 4th place due to the confusion. I was really upset.

Anyhow, i took it at the positive side. Takde rezeki dapat 2nd prize money tu and my running mileage was increased by 1km more this week. Haha. *nak sedapkan hati*. But overall, i was happy with my running performance today. Alhamdulillah. Reebok Threadmill Challenge up next!

The RUNNERS and the PRINCESS. ;)

UPM- Alamanda- Shah Alam

2011-02-16T22:18:00.002+08:00

UPM

Went to Uni today. Had a 1 hour meeting/ discussion with the supervisor. It went well. I was kinda relieved when he said " Your chapter 4 is well written just that you've got to add on some more important info". Ha biasa la tu kan. No such thing as kurang kan info malah kena LEBIH kan ada la. But takpela, dengar jela pada yang pakar. Rasa motivated again to finish up my thesis. Hopefully the motivation stays till the day i officially submit my thesis. Insya-Allah. Amin

ALAMANDA

Happy birthday Mysara!. I wish you all the best in whatever you do. I and the other "trolls" (that's what we called ourselves) had KFC for lunch. Though it was just a short lunch. But I was just happy to be around them. Love you my TROLLS ;). To Suri if you are reading this, wished you were here to celebrate My's 26th birthday. Balik KL cepat please? Rindu sangat

SHAH ALAM

Left Uni for Shah Alam at 4.30pm for the Adination program. Drove all the way from Uni to Section 7 Shah Alam for training. Sanggup betul kan?. Even some was also surprised that i drove the distance just for it . It's a once a week training with the best, so i guess tak rugi la kalau join. Besides, since I still have the time to be doing all this. Why not kan?. Nanti when dah start keje nanti, it will be kinda difficult plak kan? Unless i get a job nearby Shah Alam. Heheh. Lots to learn. Lots to observe. More practice to be done as well.

Today went fine. No complaints. Till next post!

To D1, since you are going for a short vacation, have fun! You deserve a break. Jgn lupa ole2 for me kay? ;) . Oh, kasut running jangan lupa bawak! Lain padang lain feeling dia berlari. Hehe.

15th Feb

2011-02-15T20:51:00.004+08:00

I'm well now. Got up this morning with no body aches headaches dan segala sakit la. Alhamdulillah. Today seems peaceful. Lepak kat rumah je. Listening and singing to the songs on my ipod. Cotton fabric hunting. *my mom and I sekarang jual kain cotton untuk baju kurung, handpicked. jangan marah dek non, kalau berminat nak tengok kain2 we all handpicked tu, sila email saya yer affira.khusani@gmail.com* ceh ceh sempat promote.

I was supposed to go running petang tadi. Hajat di hati nak run 10km la konon2nya. Tapi hujan lebat plak. Blessing in disguise la kot. I just got better kan. Kang kalau pegi "merempit" (tu perkataan fav kakirunner, haha) 10km kang KONG balik. Sepatutnya juga pagi tadi Ruby and the geng pegi hiking kat Gunung Angsi. Tu pun frust tak dapat join sebab i just got better. Kalau i ikut gak diorang this morning , mau i kena marah ngan bonda tercinta. So basically the whole of today menjadi anak dara yang baik duduk rumah je sambil surf internet, stalk fb and blogs orang sket, layan youtube sket, layan kerenah my mom yang nak try dengar lagu from my ipod, kasi dia belek2 barang online sket. That's about it la. Just felt so good duduk rumah je. Rilex je. Kalau rumah ni depan pantai lagi best kot. Feeling sket. Wow, that would be my dream house. Rumah near the sea.

Gonna just enjoy the final hours of 15th of February ;)

p/s: i was wondering about something today. perlu ker bercinta lama?

Hope all is well

2011-02-13T11:12:00.000+08:00

I'm still feeling unwell. I can still feel the pain on my chest when i breathe. Still feeling the joint pains too. No fever tho and i still refuse to go to the clinic. Been taking the normal meds like panadol/panadol extent and such. Ikutkan hati memang la nak tido lagi but I still unfinished business to deal with. However challenging and frustrating this thing (thesis sebenarnya) is, I so have to deal with it. LIKE it or NOT.

This week has been very emotional for me. Been thinking a lot mainly about my future. Looking at friends who have good job with good pay, dining at fancy restaurants, going to places and driving fancy cars does make me envy sometimes (well in a good way of course). I've also been thinking where will i end up (work related) once I'm done with my masters. Sometimes i feel that i'm going somewhere with no objective. Macam takde haluan je (hm, perasaan je la).

But this morning i got up real early as i was feeling uncomfortable. Read someone's blog and i was intrigued by this.

"Bila ALLAH makbulkan d0amu, maka DIA menyayangimu,

bila DIA lambat makbulkan d0amu, maka DIA ingin mengujimu,

bila DIA tidak makbulkan d0amu, maka DIA merancang sesuatu yang terbaik untukmu.

0leh itu, sentiasalah bersangka baik pada ALLAH dalam apa jua keadaan...

kerana kasih sayang ALLAH itu mendahului kemurkaanNya" Wallahua'lam.

I'm gonna keep this in mind every single time from now on. Mudah-mudahan all is well for me. Insya-Allah. Amin

unwell

2011-02-12T17:06:00.000+08:00

as the title speaks for itself. cik fira is feeling unwell. I'm feeling a sudden pain at my chest. like a muscle pull. sakit sendi also. hopefully is not dengue. gonna hibernate and see how I will feel by tonight

Dissapointment

2011-02-08T17:25:00.001+08:00

I just received a call from my friend. My dream to work at Majlis Sukan Negara as a Sports Nutritionist has been rejected. I was told that my background in Food Tech (altho i'm finishing my masters in nutrition) wasn't to their expectation. No words could describe how sad i am right now.

To D1, if you are reading this. I'm feeling really down right now. I called you earlier just now to tell you this. But I guess you will get the message if you happen to read this.

Yesterday's run

2011-02-08T11:18:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's weather was kinda hot. I almost changed my mind to not go out and run but I told myself that i should so i decided to go out lambat sikit. Did my warm up first while waiting for the sun to go mellow. I started off with a 5 minutes brisk walk before taking my first stride of running. My first 1.5km went smooth. I was surprise to see myself running with no stop for a quick breath, So i continued running till my Nike+ sportsband indicated that I've ran 5.5km. I was really excited about my performance yesterday as not only i managed to run 5.5km without stopping but I also managed to run up a hill with no stop as well. I managed to run 6.12km and it has been a while since i could run that far without giving up early.

I believe that my running form has been improved (i think). Been watching a lot of videos regarding running methods (pose method especially) lately. Been practicing on the method too as well. Well, I know that i won't be as great as Kara Goucher or Craig Alexander but I guess that with more consistent training I could pick up some of their traits of running. I've also noticed that since I've been practicing the right way of running, i noticed that my calves are less painful that it was before. Maybe because due to the forefoot running method I've been following and less of the heel strike. It does make a huge difference. My breathing, arms and hip movement has been modified accordingly. Not everyone is the same. I've experimented a lot and i guess i know how to control it already. I hope that they way I'm running right now will be maintained or to be improved from time to time.

I've also experimented on my dietary intake yesterday. I think bananas did wonders for me because bananas are packed with potassium, magnesium and minerals which helps prevent fatigue. This is a wonder a food for me as i often get leg cramps really fast while running. I'm the type who sweats a lot. So that explains why the important minerals are loss that fast. Oh, it is also loaded with vitamins B which is good to release energy. I had some as post-run snack yesterday and it worked. So gonna stock up with bananas from now and include them in my daily diet.

Lets see if today's run will be the same as yesterday's. Hope to go 1-2km further. Wish me luck!

P/s:

1) Having a GOOD pair of running shoe helps too. Make sure you are wearing a pair the best suit your pretty feet ;)

2) Make sure that eat your normal meals. Bananas can be included as a healthy snack/post work run or workout snack. Try banana smoothies ( chopped bananas+ soy milk/ milk+ a bit of brown sugar or honey) ;)

My first Half Marathon Attempt

2011-02-06T22:44:00.000+08:00

I'm very nervous about this. My very 1st 1/2 marathon

Energizer Night Run

I'm not following my training schedules well. (Waking up late in the morning/ Weather issues/ Stopped going to the gym)

The race is in April and I'm freaking out already. See how paranoid i can be?. I just hope that I'll be in a good physical (no sprained ankles or watsoever) and mental (i hope i don't back out the very last minute) state. I guess i should just run happily and not think too much about anyone else. So yea, have to indoctrinate my mind to just have fun and be happy while running for my first half :) and most importantly NOT to compare myself with others while running as everyone is different and so am I ;)

Got Tagged

2011-02-05T00:34:00.001+08:00

I should be sleeping at this very time. Tapi tak kenapa la melotot lagi biji mata ni. So dari tadi dok baca2 blog orang. So ter-baca plak blog seseorang jejaka ni. He wrote 25 facts about him. Pastu dia tag plak kat i. Tapi yang peliknya lepas dah baca 25 fakta pasal dia tu. Ada plak macam sama2 sket. Kebetulan kot. Well, life is full of surprises kan?. So here here goes the 25 facts of me.

1) I'm very emotional. Serious di luar tapi berbunga2 di dalam. kkdg diri ni boleh jadi complicated and complexed

2) I am outgoing and adventurous, suka travel. Sampai my mom suruh i slow down sikit.

3) I like art and photography. Tak pandai nak lukis tak boleh express kan pendapat dan idea.

4) I like people who shares the same interest and passion i have. best tau

5) I love the nature. Laut,pantai and pulau2 yang cantek adalah paling favourite

6) My real name is Siti Affira not Fira Tirona. Tapi ramai igt nama betul saya Fira Tirona. Tapi mmg betul la nama Tirona tu. Sebab Tirona tu nama family nenek saya. Her name is Aurora Tirona. She is a Filipino convert

7) I can be paranoid at times. Yes, i can worry too much over unnecessary things

8) Health and nutrition is a my forte. Tapi badan tak hot macam Fergie Black Eyed Peas pun. Tkpela, janji sihat

9) I used to hate running when i was small. But now kalau tak pegi run beberapa hari pun rasa macam dah tak best.

8) Saya suka maka best ;)

9) I love shoes and bags more then i love clothes sebab "with shoes we travel the world"

10) Saya suka bagi kata2 motivasi kat orang. Tapi kekadang diri sendiri tak motivated langsung. Ntah pape

11) I can play the piano. Tapi skill ni perlu diasah semula sebab dah berkarat. 7 tahun tak petik piano tu. Tapi the last time main. Ok la lg. Masih boleh membaca note music dalam buku.

12). Saya diajar untuk menjadi independent. My dad selalu pesan altho ada pasangan hidup tetap perlu berdikari

13) I like guys yang ada self-vision and motivation. I rasa that traits membuatkan diorang nampak confident. I think that's sexy. haha

14) Tak suka lelaki poyo yang ingat dia yang hebat.

15) Secretly having a crush on someone (lol)

16) Saya minum 2 liter air sehari. Sihat bukan? Haha

17) Always tell myself that fast food is bad. Tapi kekadang aku bedal gak. Moderation is the key *ceh ceh nk sedapkan hati*

18) Saya nak buka running camp/school in future kalau ada rezeki. Nak educate the young ones on starting to be healthy at a very young age :)

19). Kereta idaman adalah VW Golf GTI. Kalau tak dapat tu, pakai jela kereta CLK purple saya (cute little kelisa) yang dah umo nak masuk 8 tahun dah.

20) Cakap pasal purple. Purple is my fav color

21) Saya suka observe orang. especially bila duduk dalam bus/ train or mana2 yang ada ramai orang

22) Saya sedang menghabiskan masters. Tapi tak habis2 lagi. Insya-allah it end. Dah tak larat dah ni. Nak kena cari keje. Umo pun dah makin meningkat.

23) Kekadang saya suka buat hal sendiri. Contoh: keluar sendiri, tgk wayang sendiri

24) Oh, i love fashion and styles. Tapi diri sendiri tak la stylo sgt pun. biasa2 je. kkdg cm selekeh pun ada. haha

25) Saya tak suka bau asap rokok. benci. Habis baju semua melekat kat baju/tudung. Katakan tak nak pada rokok ok?

OK, there you go. 25 random facts about me. Personally i think i'm just a simple person je. Nothing special pun. Tapi mungkin special pada mata orang lain kot? Haha. Have a good weekend everyone!

words to ponder and (wonder)

2011-02-04T16:10:00.000+08:00

Kata ratu hatiku

"You can't have it all in life and you've got to learn how to accommodate with the people or situation around you sebab kakak ni (refer pada diri saya) have a very strong/hard character"

Oh. Tak perasan plak. Baiklah. Akan ku renung-renungkan kata-kata mu wahai ratu hatiku

Yes, sgt strong sampai my arms are sore sebab pegi hiking kat bukit tabur yesterday. Challenging gak la, terasa macam spidergirl la gak bila kena panjat batu2 *sakit woo tangan* to complete the hike. Macam mana pun, I've managed to conquer Bukit Tabur West!

Time ni serious happy sebab dapat lepas panjat batu yang sgt susah tu

Ha, masa attempt to panjat batu yang sgt challenging for me. The picture above nampak muka dah happy kan sebab dah lepas the attemp. Muka i dah cuak gila time kata my friend Ruby. Haha. Ok, lepas ni kena pegi register-kan diri kat shah alam extreme park buat wall climbing

Team wanita-wanita gagah ;)

Banyak lagi pics sebenarnya. But the rest have not uploaded them up on Facebook yet. So kena la tunggu.

Oh, total hiking time is about 3 jam i think. 2 hrs and 15mins up and 45mins down. Nak turun tak sesusah nak naik (of course la kan?) Hahah. Bukit Tabur East shall be in the my next to do list!

Phuket Trip- The long awaited post

2011-02-02T18:05:00.000+08:00

The long awaited post

4 days 3 nights stay at Novotel, Patong Beach Phuket.

A celebration of 8 years of friendship/sisterhood with my very good friend. Someone i trust, love and confide. To Zalekha Yazid, this blogpost is for you.

Courtesy of SHAPE magazine

The fantastic view from the hotel lobby

Another fantastic view- Near the pool side

AWESOMENESS

The cruise to phi Phi Phi Island

Amazing view from the top of the cruise. LAWA GILA Ok!.. Pardon the mamat salleh in the pic*. p/s: badan dia cam fit siot. ahah

Clear blue waters at phi phi island beach

Meet Jan. The solo traveler from Germany. Only 20 yrs old and so very adventurous.

Ehems

Blue sky, blue sea. Breathtaking

A memorable trip. I hope to come here again ;)

a year wiser

2011-01-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

happy 58th birthday to the king of my heart

semoga panjang umur, murah rezeki dan sentiasa diberkati ilahi

i love you pa

Busy bee mode starts next week

2011-01-27T17:58:00.000+08:00

My prof called me up this afternoon. Asked me to send an abstract to the Asian Congress of Nutrition 2011 few hours back. He asked me to write another journal article for international publication. I thought boleh la goyang kaki kejap kan but tu la dia. Takpela, buat je la. Afterall at least i won't get so bored since belum ada kerja lagi. So yea, puasa FB starts again next week. That's when the process memerah otak resumes again.

Banyak lagi nk blog sebenarnya ni (from my recent Phuket Trip to my new Brooks running shoes that i got at a Jualan Gudang for RM90 yaw!) but now....I've got to get something scanned tapi macam lupa plak macam mana nk operate printer/scanner i ni. Haha. Later!

the final night

2011-01-23T22:02:00.000+08:00

I'm currently at the room balcony while blogging this. waiting for my black lemon tea to get chilled in the mini fridge. i am really blessed to have won this trip. 4 days is not enough for someone who loves the sun sea and beach like me.

i am going to miss the relaxing ride on the cruise to phi phi island. being sun kissed while enjoying the cruise and admiring nature is just out of this world. the clear blue sky goes so well with the turqoise color sea water. amazing. i wish to come back here again. i love being here and the fact that i am here to have a real time for myself. some time to love myself more. gonna enjoy the very last hours of the night before getting myself back home.

P/s: secretly missing' mr cancer'

the island cruise

2011-01-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

sea angel you made my day

Making me forget the sad things i think each day

Loving the sea, the sun and the warm breeze that hits my face

Leaving me now in the state of craze

Sea angel you made my day

The island cruise to remember i must say

Away for 3 nights

2011-01-21T12:39:00.000+08:00

My rendition of eat, pray, love starts tonight

Have a good weekend people

*missing you already*. hahah apekah?

Billy Brocklesby

2011-01-20T14:54:00.000+08:00

I received an email from my uncle who is residing in the United States. It was a very sad one. His best friend passed away due to Meningitis. Billy, as how we called him once came to Malaysia 10 years ago. He came along with my uncle for vacation and stayed at my house for i think a few days. Though i don't have many memories with him but i feel sad that he left the world too soon. He was just 40 years old when god took his life away. May your soul rest in peace Billy.

Never take our life for granted as HE will take our lives back in many ways

Bukan pelari tegar

2011-01-20T11:36:00.003+08:00

I've got to stop running sesuka hati. I felt uncomfortable running this morning. No more fast starts. Well, memang la best run laju2. No more forefoot running as my calves akan rasa sakit after that. From now on, bila pegi easy run, kena rileks je. Oh ya, I've got to stop looking at my Nike+ every 5 minutes while running. Pendek kata, next run kena run rilex2 je. Maklum la, saya ni bukannya la pelari tegar. Oleh itu, from now on, I've got to stop running sesuka hati. I've got to set my pace right and stick to it. Kalau rasa boleh laju then I'll try to push. Got to change every single aspect of the way i run now and yes, I've got to gain my core strength back again.

Current mood: FRUSTRATED

p/s: teringin nak makan vanilla cupcake with butterfrost icing oreo on top yang best. mana la nak dapat?. can someone pls surprise me with this? haha :p

Zodiac Sign

2011-01-19T23:05:00.000+08:00

I'm a Leo

July 23 to August 22

Strengths

Confident
Ambitious
Generous ,Loyal
Encouraging

Weaknesses

Pretentious
Domineering
Melodramatic
Stubborn
Vain

Leo and Independence:

Leo is very independent but they need something to control and someone to admire them and appreciate them. (heheh). They are fully capable of being greatly successful on their own but they are much happier if they have an audience and a following of people who look up to them. (wink wink) They would prefer not be alone (*nods*)

Leo and Friendship:

People are attracted to Leo's zest for life and their warm spirit. They have the ability to lift up one's spirits and provide encouragement when times are rough. Their enthusiasm attracts people, Leos are social butterflies, not because they want to be but because people always naturally gravitate and surround the Leo. Leos are very difficult people to not like, they are usually fairly balanced, realistic people. They never dwell on the past and they will think you are strange if you do. Some Leos might be too caught up in themselves and be very self-centered but they are never too self-absorbed to help anyone who needs it. They pamper their friends and treat them well. A Leo is the ultimate friend. They do not hold a grudge and they are very forgiving. They have respect and understanding of people's differences. ( hmmmm..ada la tu yang betul tu)

Leo in a Nutshell:

Leo is the lion, this well suited symbol represents Leo very well. They possess a kingdom which they protest and cherish. The are high esteemed, honorable and very devoted to themselves in particular! The kingdom could be anything from work to home to a partner, whatever it is, you rule it. Leo is always center stage and full of flair, they enjoy basking in the spotlight. A Leo always makes their presence known. Leo are full of energy that acts like a magnet for other people. Others are attracted to Leo's wit, charm, and what they have to say for they speak of things grand and very interesting. Leo will never settle for second best. They want only the best which can cause lavish excessive spending habits as they enjoy their life of luxury, which is all to easily justified by the grand and magnificent Leo! Public image is very important to Leo, with luxurious possessions and ways of life, this keeps the public image in high standing. They will do whatever it takes to protect their own reputation. Leos are very generous, kind and openhearted people. If a Leo is crossed, they will strike back with force but they are not one to hold a grudge, they easily forgive, forget and move on. Leos are always trying to make things right in the world, they have larger then life emotions and they need to feel like they have accomplished something at the end of the day. They react to situations with action instead of sitting back and thinking about it, they are not impulsive however because they look at the future and consider consequences of their actions. (Uishh, like got the same characteristics in me jer. haha)

What it's like to date a Leo Woman? (ehem, jeng jeng hahaha)

The first step is to give her praise and adoration. The relationship will never work if she does not receive this from you. Do not look at other women when you are with her, she has to be the only one in your eyes. The thought of competition with other women completely turns her off, for she is marvelous and grand and better then any other woman (in her eyes)! Be prepared however to compete with other men. She attracts men, deliberately or not, because of her dazzling personality. She makes a good partner because she gives undying affection and love and makes you feel really mood about yourself. She is kind and supportive with an adventurous streak, she is always fun to be with. Leo woman will dominate,. But not completely for she still needs the man to lead the way and give her the desired sense of approval, she looks up to her man. Leo woman is perfect for the man who is affectionate and has a strong character but not too controlling. She needs someone who is passionate about everything in their life and who strives for the best in everything, because so does she.

Hmm, some are quite true and some are not. Perhaps all of this are all kebetulan je kot?. Its kinda fun reading all this astrology stuffs. Tapi don't go believing it 100% ok?. Have faith and keep and stay with it.

So what's your zodiac sign like?

p/s: Having faith is to believe what is real and disbelieving the not

Yang terjadi hari ini

2011-01-18T23:04:00.000+08:00

My alarm clock woke me up today. As usual i snoozed it back again. My 5 minutes snooz turned out to be a 20 minute one . Damn i was late. Quickly showered and had 1/2 cup of soy milk and a piece of wholemeal bread smothered with a little of my fav soft cheese. Headed to UPM. Road was jammed. Macam biasala jalan kat KL ni. Jam sana sini. Makan roti ngan jam pun lagi seronok. Haha. Sampai on time anyway.

My meeting with the supervisor started at 11am. I was scheduled to see him at 10am. Maka 1 jam i tunggu yang berhormat tu. Maklumlah supervisor i adalah juga timbalan dekan fakulti. Meeting went fine. Terasa hati macam happy sket as supervisor macam tak banyak kerenah sangat. Terasa seperti kurang beban di bahu. Haha. Meeting lasted for like an hour. Had my lunch with my dear coursemate. Kami sama2 tengah pulun untuk siapkan thesis. Tapi minah ni lagi hardcore sebab kekadang lepak buat keje kat faculty till 12-1am. Takpe, demi masa depan yang cerah. AMIN

Tapi yang paling sengal harini adalah when i found out that i forgot to bring along my running pants. I THOUGHT that i've put it in my bag pack. I was upset definitely. Dah la drive jauh semata2 nak pegi running kat sana *tempat dirahsiakan* hahaha. Weather was great and I even had a great running partner to go for a 6Km run today. Tapi tu la dia, takkan nak lari in my jeans kan? Tak sesuai. Tapi went walking also la since dah datang . 1 round around the lake. Lepas tu I called up Ruby (another running partner) and asked her if she could lepak with me. Yeay! Dapat gak lepak with her today. Girl-talked and gossiped over coffee. Babe, if you are reading this, thanks for your time today ;).

Today went just fine walaupun tak dapat pegi running. Some how or rather, things do happened for a reason. :)

Chick #207

2011-01-17T00:22:00.000+08:00

I'm now officially the new ayam in the reban.

Chick #207 in the CHAP AYAM RUNNERS community

Went for my 1st LSD for the year this morning. Ran about 14km. Okey2 la. But i learned something today and i promised myself not to repeat it again. My vow was not to run dengan gigihnya that far especially on the 1st or 2nd day of "THE time of the month". Actually insiden macam ni penah jadi. Tapi lagi teruk sebab tu masa bulan puasa. Sekian. Haha :p

Sometimes goodbyes are good

2011-01-15T09:18:00.003+08:00

Hello again. I decided yesterday to blog again. I've also decided yesterday to deactivate my Facebook account temporarily. So this morning i clicked onto the 'deactivate' tab and tada! it's deactivated. I'll let it sleep and rest for awhile. LOL :p

Why deactivate? I dunno. I just had that urge to do so. Just to see how my life will be without it. So far still boleh bernafas kot? haha. (ceh ceh, berlagak je. padahal baru je 1/2 jam deactivate invention Mark Zuckerberg tu). But i do have some reasons for it tho. Let me share my 2 cents with you.

TIME

Haha, i spend A LOT OF MY TIME mengadap FB ni. That's the first thing that i will do when i start my laptop. Pagi2 je dah sibuk nak tengok status update orang., tengok photo updates., commenting on photos and commenting on others' status updates. Haha. Teruk betul. Not only that, it disrupts my time on doing something else like my THESIS for instance, house chores and more. I think its best that my time is filled with other beneficial activities like blogging for instance. At least blogging tak la take so much of my time sampai berjam2 unless i'm like a celebrity blogger or something. So there you go, TIME IS PRECIOUS

p/s: orang2 berkerja pun suka ber-fb dan lantas membuatkan productivity menurun. I penah nampak la officer kat *tempat dirahsiakan* rancak gila ngadap fb, muka serious gila sampai student kat dpn counter pun dia buat derk je!. Geram betul. Campak pc tu baru tau. Haha :p

MISINTERPRETATION

Ok, this might be a sensitive issue. Misinterpretation of every single thing can happen in facebook from status updates, tagged post, tagged photos, photo comments and more la. Some may just update anything that's on their mind and tetiba je banyak je comments yang membina/ stupid/ takde kene mengena akan menyusul after that. Ada gak status update yang i rasa poyo/ mengada or "perlu ke ko update status macam tu?" but normally status updates macam tu i akan just buat tak baca je. Haha. Selalunya i will think before i comment coz i rasa certain comments boleh buat certain people terasa when you thing that what you commented to cam takde ape2. Byk kali la i tgk status updated being misinterpreted. Sampai gado2 kat facebook. Tak baik la kan. Nak comment tu biar la berpada2. Kata2 tu biar la disusun dengan baik. Kalau nak komen yang stok pedas/tangkap dalam punya ada caranya.

Ok, dalam fb chat pun misinterpretation can happen. How? contohnya when smiley icons are used. Contohnya la kan: Cik A: kau ok ke wei ngn aku punya suggestion. pastu Cik B reply: ok je kot :). Cik A mungkin interpret that Cik B ok sebab dia kasi smiley icon tu. But note the word KOT before the icon. Haha. Fikir2kan la sendiri. Cara terbaik, telefon je la. Baru u tau kawan you tu ok ker tak. Same applies to you as well.

SOCIAL LIFE

Well, it is cool to be connecting with your friends on fb. You get to keep in touch with those you dan berzaman tak jumpa, which i think its a good thing. You get to see their again..updates/photos or whatever. But i'm pretty sure that you will just keep on connecting with them and saying things like "eh, kena jumpa doh...dah berzaman dinasour tak jumpa ni". Cakap je kan. It happened to me to and sampai sekarang ni i tak jumpa lagi my friend yang i berzaman dinasour tak jumpa tu. Dah la she still remembers my full name. Haha. Comel betul. I think i should buzz her for real this time. I better do that next week. *promise pada diri sendiri*.
Oh another way of "socializing" yourself with friends is to also 'poke' them. You know, that application that has the jari telunjuk icon. My rendition of "poke' on fb is that macam in real life, you tengah jalan pegi somewhere, pastu ada orang cuit you kat bahu, u pandang pastu u akan angkat tangan or angkat kening tanda you acknowldege kawan you. hahah. Menda la kan. Baik cuit kawan2 you in real life, at least dapat gak diorang tengok muka you, expression you macam mana kan? terkejut ke, marah ke, gelak2 ke? Lagi seronok kot?. So there you go. GO OUT AND SOCIALIZE WITH FRIENDS/NEW FRIENDS. I think it's better to see them in person and have that real conversation and at the same time get the tighten the bonds you all have. Priceless i believe. Oh, kepada yang nak cari pasangan hidup tu. Tak perlu sgt la cari kat fb tu sebab bukan semua dalam fb tu indah. Why not go out with other circle of friends or be introduced to other circle of friend by your current close friends. Mana la tau terjumpa yang berkenan di hati. Tgk face to face to dulu la baru thrill. Then pastu, baru add dia kat fb. Kalau dia interested kat you, he/she will accept your friend request. Kalau tak, tunggu la sampai diorang approve korang.

Overall, i feel that we are too dependent on fb. Well i'm not saying that the site is bad. Well it is a good medium of connecting with people. Even people run their business on fb and even wedding invitations are done just through facebook. Memang practical, fast and efficient. But i believe that certain things are better left the old-fashioned way, old-schooled. If you need to connect with someone, call them/meet up or whatever!. I think i'm gonna do that now. So goodbye facebook (err temporarily, haha), hello again to the real world! ;)

to stop blogging for the time being

2011-01-13T21:23:00.002+08:00

I noticed that lately ni my blogposts cam tak berapa best. Bila i baca balik previous blogs most of it mesti ada cerita hati sedih. Orang baca pun boleh bosan. Yelakan, membaca blog minah yang selalu sedih/emo. Dah rasa macam loser la plak kan. Cerita pasal my running routine/ events pun dah makin lama makin takde. So i rasa it's best that i stop blogging for awhile la till i get better or happies things/topics to blog about. Rasanya kalau nk blog benda2 sedih better je la buat dalam personal diary. So takdelah nampak pathetic sangat.

So i guess that no more blogging for the time being. Nanti bila rasa macam hati dah riang or bila ada idea yang boleh menghasilkan topic yang best/provocative/mind-boggling/ lawak2. Then i'll resume again. At the same time boleh gak restructure balik layout design blog ni. Kasi re-branding sket (tukar url baru ke) or mana la tau tetiba jadi firatirona DOT COM ke? heheheh. Walaupun akan stop blogging buat seketika tapi i akan tetap baca blog2 orang lain. :p.

Till next post! (which is i tak tau bila LOL) ;)

The need of motivation for the passion/s we have

2011-01-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

There are time that we feel down and melancholy about the issues faced in our lives. As for me, i tend to get worried when my passion or interest don't get full support especially from the people i love. Thank god that i have close friends, friends with similar interest and passion to share what i like doing. I'm not saying that people i love don't give me the support but sometimes they don't just give me that extra kick of support to what i do and that by end of the day i will feel disappointed with the things they say and the reaction they will give me when i tell them about it.

Ok, i'm being very vague here. Bet that you are thinking or digesting what i'm rambling about. i even posted something on my fb few minutes ago which reads:

"At times, u just need that someone or something that has got to do with your passion to get you motivated back again"

And to my suprise, this status of mine was "liked" by my friends and family. Padahal, i just tulis like bodo2 je. Well, maybe they could understand what i'm trying to express. Well, at least.hehe.

So I am feeling this way you might ask. Selama i hidup ni, there are things they i like to do, or what i wanna do, or what i want to be are being screened by my parents. Now macam dah kurang sket la but i still have to endure the arguments, debates and wat not on certain issues till i get the greenlight from them. Same applies to my other half as well.. Serious macam like kena argue bertegang urat sampai nak putus baru la nk kata OK. Haha, penah tak jadi kat korang macam tu. Bengang tak bengang tak?

Lets start when i was a little girl. Well, like normal growing kids, i've always wanted to be a doctor. Yer, cliche tapi yea, profession yang bagus. But the angan2 was not that long till i got merely an average greats during matriculation. Serious i fucked up (opps sorry) my whole year there. I memang tak boleh study kat sana. I felt so trapped as i was surrounded by straight A students. Bukan setakat student yang dapat 8A, yang 9-11A pun ada. And mine u. A1s ok?. OMG, stress gila. Mood nak blaja hilang. Everday pun nak balik rumah ( i was lucky sebab UM dekat je ngan rumah). So nak dipendekkan cerita, dengan results 'cantek' cam tu only la layak masuk IPTS. Kalau tau la jadi macam ni, patut amik je sports science kat uitm dulu. Minat gak tapi the reaction i got was " ha? amik sport science? pastu jadi ape? jadi cikgu PJ?". i was like..."ape kes?" nak jadi cikgu PJ tk yah ada degree pun tkpe kot? Lagi satu minat i nk amik Mass Comm tak pun TESL sebab deep down inside i tau i boleh nk ace course tu. Yelah saya suka membebel. Sekian. Ok. fine, niat terbantut.

So, masa enroll kat IPTS, my parents sebok soh i amik biomedic. Tapi niat dalam hati memang dah tawar hati ngn course yang ada perkataan "medic" kat belakang. Cam serik pun ada. I ni bukannya la ada otak geliga or jenis yang ngadap buku bio, chem or watever 24/7. OH NO NO. Tapi takpela, dah grad dah pun. Dapat la keje 1 year after that dapat sambunh Masters. Alhamduillah. And now tengah battle with my Master's thesis. Final sem, critical, dan hari2 berdoa agar Allah permudahkan segala final stages of it. AMIN

Ok, tu part academic la. Oh lupa plak nak citer pasal MUSIC. Well, i can play the piano. In fact i'm a 7th grade holder. Reason tak habiskan till grade 8 is that i time tu BZ ngn SPM. Tapi sampai2 sekarang tak habiskan pun. Bukan tak minat lagi dah. I still like playing the piano walaupun sedikit rustic but kalau pratice hari2 boleh la kot nak cari makan tapi taklah sampai nk jadi femes cam Alicia Keys or Yuna ( oh baju Yuna pakai masa AJL sangat lawa!. eh eh lari topic plak). Dulu ada band and i play the keyboard. Tapi separuh jalan jelah sebab my mom tak suka the idea of me pegi jamming kat studio. Laaa dah tu? Alicia Keys pun jam kat studio kot?. Haih, tak faham. Again, niat terbantut. Takpela, main untuk diri sendiri dengar je la nanti.

Next issue pasal sports. I have always been active i sports. Altho tkde la active macam atlit2 negara or international athelete. But ok la kalau nk peluh2 and kasi badan fit and and healthy. I ingat lagi time kecik2 dulu, nak masuk sports gempak2 tak boleh sebab badan cute sangat. Kalau setakat lontar peluru tu boleh la. Haha. So disebabkan tak boleh nk buat athletics my dad belikan roller blades, pastu beli mountain bike. Ala, tetiba lupa plak brand MTB i. But i remembered it was in blue. Sangat sayang basikal tu. pakai sampai hampir ranap, mana tak nya. turun tangga pun naik basikal. Ha, amik kau, ganas betul anak dara ni. Then, bila masuk uni, kawan2 ajak main futsal plak. best kot futsal. Of course la my parents tak bagi main kan. But i ni degil dan disebabkan tak dengar ckp parents, ankle kaki kanan i ntah brapa kali dah terseliuh. pegi class pun sampai kawan kena tolong papah. Yela, nak pegi class kena naik tangga. class pun slalu floor yang plg atas. Sedih betul. ahaha. Since, slalu sangat kaki terkehel, maka retire la dari arena futsal. Tapi kkdg hati tu rasa macam nk pegi gak main once in awhile. Tapi, tak mau la. sebab sekarang jaga kaki. Sebab ada passion baru which is running (insiden terseliuh kaki memang tak leh lari dari my life sebab time lari pun leh terseliuh. haih)

Ok anyway, balik pada cerita running ni. I started end of 2009. Masuk for fun je. Sebab stamina pun takde la gempak mana pun. Masa mula2 masuk event DUKE RUN, lari pun tercungap2 wpun only 5km distance dia. My parents ok la supportive gak pasal larian2 ni. TIME tu la. Sebab mungkin diorang ingat i ni macam tak la serious nk masuk benda2 macam ni. After that run, i rasa macam addicted. I registered in more runs. Duit pun banyak spend kat running attire and registration fee. So biasala, mom pun start pok pek pok pek. I pun cam pelik la, benda ni bagus kot? healthy activity. Still tak mendapat greenlight. Tapi my peak was after raya. Byk gila event i masuk. lari sini lari sana. Training sini training sana. Time tu tkde sape nak bising sape my parents takde. Even masa bulan puasa pun berlari gak sampai kena BANNED from running at night. I kena marah teruk dari my bro and bf. My mom marah gak la tapi dia macam cool gak. Sebab i msg dia and told her the reason of me doing so. I became active running pun sebab i met with up with friends with the same passion and interest. Diorang banyak membantu, banyak motivate. These people la yang paling faham i. Sangat happy to have known them. Wpun baru kenal, but i feel that they are very close to my heart. Cakap pasal running gak, i have a friend that is so passionate about this sports that i think he would do anything to be given an opportunity for him to go further in his passion of being a great athlete. His latest post made me realize how keen he is in the running world and how far he wants to go. Click to his blog, Running is my passion, art is my soul if you are an avid runner and give your support as well :). He's also a budding graphic design student.

So there you go. i feel that what ever your passion or interest are. You definitely have to need someone or something to motivate you. Not only for that spur moment but constantly so that you won't get offtrack. Well, memang boleh nak motivate diri sendiri tapi but i guess you just need a friend/s to be there for you. Right?

My rendition of Eat, Pray, Love

2011-01-07T19:08:00.001+08:00

Will blog about this soon enough :)

Dah baik, finally

2011-01-06T20:03:00.003+08:00

I'm back to my normal state. No more jet lags, nausea, and pening2 lalat. Bila sampai Liverpool after the long hours flight takde plak jadi macam ni. Bila balik Malaysia macam2 plak jadi. Sakit badan la, loya la ape la. Ish

Anyway, i'm feeling better now ( i hope). Tadi while driving to uni pun i was experiencing headache and i felt like REAL sleepy. In fact i'm feeling really sleepy now. Maybe time tido belum betul lagi kot. So after uni, i pegi to visit my grandparents and they were so happy to see their cucu kesayangan *ehem*. Haha. Then balik rumah, tak sampai 10 minits mom ajak pegi this interior design shop. Katanya nak letak wallpaper kat my room. Kasi my room cantek. Hehe. Chose a black white and silver shade for my room wall. Hope my mom agrees on it la. Kalau jadi nanti i'll post up the new look of my room. Which will only happen after CNY. Harap bersabar ok? ;)

Esok kena start running again. Hm, tapi motivation untuk berlari tu macam hilang sikit. I need my running motivator!. Dia pun cam bz je lately ni. :(. Takpela, pegi lari sendiri je la. Hope to start fresh and free from all my sakit2-ness. Thesis pun dan memanggil *dang* and oh, kena siapkan resume. Next week nak hantar. Kat mana?. Ha..nanti dah dapat kat mana nanti i beritahu.

p/s: rasa2-nya kalau pencinta kasut jadi lecturer sesuai ke?

back to life back to reality

2011-01-05T00:04:00.002+08:00

back home. home sweet home. rindu rumah. rindu katil, rindu bilik, rindu kereta dan rindu macam2 lagi. tapi yang paling tak rindu is kembali ke realiti kehidupan. well it's not that i hidup dalam alam fantasi macam alice in wonderland tu but cam malas nk face the real deal. ahah. boleh tak cenggitu?. ishh..cannot2 like this. must be positive sebab dah janji pada diri sendiri over a lot of things.

But right now, i got to get my sleeping time fixed. feeling to jet-lagged. pening. nauseous.

Till next post when i'm feeling less jet-lagged. Hiks

p/s: cam kemaruk nak makan benda yang best plak time2 macam ni.ish2

last hours in Liverpool

2011-01-03T03:51:00.004+08:00

phew...baru je lepas packing barang. penat kot today. the whole day berjalan. maklum la last day berholiday kat Liverpool. Went to the city center again for the last time to get my mom's handbag idaman. Memang rezeki my mom that the bag jual kat sini. Kesian dia mencari the whole KL tapi tk jumpa. I'm sure she will be delighted to see it nanti. Then pegi Tesco beli barang dapur for my brother. Nasib la dah masak earlier. So tak la kelam kabut sangat. Oh, we had spaghetti carbonara today. Budak2 ni makan pun tambah je. No complaints. Sedap la tu. Kalau tak sedap pun makan je la kan sebab sejuk and lapar.

Got home and kept the things dulu. Then we headed to Sefton Park like 1/2 hour walk from our place. Cantek sangat tempat tu. Breathtaking sangat. Sempat gak la i pegi run 3km kat sana. Wanted to run more tapi cam takut sebab banyak dogs kat park tu. Kat sini, dog owners je leave them running around, unleashed. I ni takut anjing, penah experience kena kejar. So cam trauma sket. Dogs here are BIG ok?. Altho they are harmless and tak kacau, but still cam takut. Heheh. And there was one dog that came up to us pastu suruh baling the stick yang dia bawak tu. Comel please. Tapi takkan la nak main throw and fetch kan? Kang satu keje plak nk kena samak semua balik. So the owner came up to and apologize sebab she was afraid that her dog macam made us terkejut. Sangat polite that lady. And yes, people here are polite ok. Even u nak cross the road pun, they will stop dulu and make u cross 1st. Tak macam kat Malaysia, lagi nampak kita nak cross jalan, LAGILA diroang accelerate. Sungguh tak civic minded langsung. OK back to the park story. I just love it there. I bet nanti masa spring and summer lagi LAWA. Haihh, i wish i could come back here again kalau ada rezeki amin.

Overall, I'm happy with my stay here. I feel more calmed and relaxed since i got here. Free from the dramas, hustles and bustles back home. I'm ready to go home now to face whatever that awaits me, be it good or bad. I've got to face every challenge with a positive mind and be strong and tough at the same time. But on the other hand, i wish to come here again. I love it here. I've learned to be more independent during my stay here cuma downside dia is that i malas buat thesis. LOL. Ish, tak boleh jadi ni. Balik ni kena pulun BAIK punya (sebab lepas ni nk pegi Phuket plak. Ni pegi sebab menang contest in SHAPE magazine). So yea, i berdoa' to come with with clear mind, heart and soul.

Gonna miss my adik tho. I know he's kinda sad that i'll be leaving tomorrow. Gotta get some sleep now. More post about my 21 days experience here soon. Till then, have a great year ahead everyone. :)

p/s: Pencinta kasut made someone upset today. She is so at fault and feeling terribly bad about it till now. She is so very sorry :(. You know who you are.

2011

2011-01-01T10:11:00.003+08:00

Happy new year all. How was your new year celebration?. Mine was a quiet one. What i did today was just lepak at home, layan dvd, dengar lagu in my ipod, re-arrange songs into my ipod sebab it went "bengong" kejap as it wouldn't sync with my Itunes. Sabar je la. I had to reset it all over again making some of my fav song to hear for running hilang. Now dah ok . Nasib la pandai godek ipod ni. I'm not that IT/ gadget savvy tho.

Me and the boys (my bro and my cuzin) were glued to our chairs practically the whole day. Sorang main game, sorang layan OC. I plak konon nk baca journal. Tapi baca half way je dah malas. Gila demotivated. Nak lari petang sini pukul 4 dah gelap. Orang pun dah takde. Takut pun ada nk kluar running. Kalau ada kawan tkpe. How i miss running back home. Sabar2..few more days nak balik dah. But tomorrow noon i'll be going a park like 45minutes away from home. Last kopek la to run in the cold. Well, the weather is kinda ok now. It's like between 5-6 degrees.

Sighh, feeling rather melancholy now.. Its almost 2.30am and i'm still not asleep. It's so unlike me. There are still things bothering me. I just hope that i'll be tough enough to go through what ever obstacles ahead of me this new year. I wanna be more optimistic, i wanna be back on top of the wheel again. I miss that good feeling. I wanna it back. I wanna it back real bad.

I better get to bed. Gotto get recharged. Dear 2011, please be kind and dear to me. I hope that my journey for this year will be blessed by the Al-Mighty. Insya-Allah. Amin

The few last days here

2010-12-30T23:55:00.009+08:00

2 more days before ushering in the new year. Today i felt like i'm at the lowest point of the wheel. Like really low macam lipas yang kena pijak sampai penyek. Yes, expression yang sangat dramatic. Although i was feeling that way, i still managed to habis kan my 1/4 meal at nando's. Tengah makan pun boleh fikir macam2 benda.Oh hari ni lunch kat luar sebab malas nak masak plus dah tak tau dah nak masak ape. Lapar babe, dah la sejuk. Nak pegi makan pun kena jalan to the city center. It's like 20 minutes walk. Sebelum pegi makan pun calories dah burned sebab walking, breakfast pun tak. Dahla badan pun memang sentiasa membakar kalori berlebihan untuk memanaskan badan *hm, faham tak?* haha.

At Nando's. Kulit seperti putih and gebu je since I'm here. Tapi hidung tetap tak mancung. Kalau dah berdarah jawa/india/filipino memang dah tak boleh nk buat ape. Tapi cute gak la, err kot? haha

Right after lunch, i decided to go jalan2 before balik rumah. Suka sangat tengok the people here. From the way they dress to the way they behave. Macam style and ragam ada. The toddlers here plak so comel. Semua pun kena balut ngan baju tebal sebab sejuk. As result, bila diorang jalan pun dah macam style barney atau donald duck berjalan. Terkedek2. Cute gila ok. Dah la putih, mata biru rambut blonde. Agak2 nya kalau aku kawin mat salleh anak aku pun mata dia biru kan. Tapi rambut tak nak la blonde. Nak brunette. Cam Suri, anak Katie Holmes and Tom Cruise. Uishh.. berangan lebih ni. Mat Salleh kat sini pun tak pandang aku kot. Dah ler pendek kan. I'm sure they think that i'm still a school girl. LOL.

Anyway, everytime i go to the City Center, i will always check in kat Primark and Sportdirect.com. Kat Primark barang agak reasonable. The apparel and footwear here agak style and harga pun tak la mahal as compared to Zara, Topshop and all those expensive departmental store. Lagi2 la tengah winter sale ni. Lagi la murah. Just imagine , i got myself a khaki blouse for only £4 (around RM20). Made in Ireland lagi. Jangan marah k. Kalau pegi Padini Authentics yang Made in Malaysia pun tak boleh dapat quality blouse like that for RM20. Kalau nk RM20 punya blouse kat KL, boleh dapat kat Sg Wang. If you are fortunate enough, you will get a good one, kalau tak, nasib la kan. Sportdirect.com pun best gila kot. I rasa dah byk kali dah aku masuk kedai tu. Kalau tengok balik kt CCTV, memang confirm muka aku ada. Haha. Got myself running stuff kat sana. Memang berbaloi la. "LIKE" ...ha amik kau, macam format dalam FB tu aku bagi. Another store i suka masuk is Office. Bukan office orang pegi keje tu. But it's name of a shoe store. Macam2 brand ada. That's where i got my Purple Tiger tu la. Sangat puas hati

So today, since i rasa macam sedih, i decided to get one more thing at the sports store. Konon2 last kopek la kan. Harap2 last la sebab duit pun dah depleting, oh no!. Masuk je kedai tu terus i pegi ke the running section and i got my self this for

£4.99 (about RM25)

Karrimor Tech Run Cap Ladies

(nak jugak ada color pink tu)

Basically dah lengkap la attire baru untuk tahun depan. Baju baru, tights baru, kasut baru, cap baru. Kasi semangat sket untuk training. Maklumlah dengan gagahnya dah sign up for 21km run. Pegi training pun kena stylo ok baru la vogue. Vogue2 pun, performance haruslah sejajar dengan tahap stylo and voguenya. Tak sabar nk balik KL and start training. Rindu sangat2. Yeke rindu running? Ke rindu orang slalu pegi running tu. Eh..oooppps. :p

Ok la, nak start pack barang balik dalam luggage. Rasanya macam banyak benda plak i beli kan. Ada yang orang kirim, souvenirs untuk rakan2. Hmm, kasut i je dah 3 pasang. Hmm...sumbat je la. Haha. Till next post!

Resolutions 101

2010-12-28T06:20:00.004+08:00

It has been 2 weeks plus that I'm here in Liverpool. Gosh, how time flies. As i opened my thesis files I realized that i have not put any effort in finishing up the discussion of my thesis. Must be the holiday mood. Till today (and even this very second) I've been thinking about ups and downs i've gone through these past months (physically, mentally and spiritually). I've got to admit that being here totally calms me down, i feel so relaxed though there were certain things that still bugged me (must be the thesis i guess, haha). I also took time to think about what should i do/achieve next year.

Since I'm at my final stages of thesis writing, i plan to get myself a job by next Feb, part time though as I still have to complete my final semester in UPM (sangat berdoa everyday that everything will go well for my thesis. Tak larat already. Seriously). Main reason of applying for a part time job is that i need to start saving money. I'll be 27 next year i don't wanna be depending on my parents for money. Well not to say that i'm complaining with what they are providing me but it's just that i wanna earn some so that i could save up more and also i could have extra cash to pay up the fee for running events. Some events could be pricey tho. Second reason is that i could warm up myself up to the working life again after leaving the working world for quite sometime. So nanti bila dah dapat permanent job tak la rasa ralat kan? (Insya-Allah, Amin).

I just pray that 2011 will be dear to me. 2010 has been fine just that i think there has been lots of hiccups along the way be it in terms of many things. I'm still thinking the possible resolutions to be listed in my purple diary. So i better think hard and be realistic and responsible for them but definitely not 101 as the title of the blog says. Its just literally speaking. Haha ;)

p/s: Won't leave my running routines and running events for sure. In fact, i've already planned which events to participate *winks*

Purple Tiger

2010-12-27T20:44:00.002+08:00

Loving my new "purple tiger". I've always wished that i could own a pair of Onitsuka Tiger. Guess that my wish finally came true when these pair were on 60% off on Boxing Day yesterday!

Can't wait to wear it when i get back to KL ;)

Fira Tirona Santarina

2010-12-25T02:07:00.002+08:00

Got nicked "FIRA TIRONA SANTARINA" today from a super junior of mine at my old college. Lawak la u babe. Anyway, it won't be a snowy christmas here after all (snowed 1 week ago tho). I was hoping for a snowy one tomorrow just like in the movies.

Not much to say, so yea. Merry X-mas to all who are celebrating it

p/s: missing everyone back home

Jalan-jalan UK-Manchester

2010-12-22T05:18:00.014+08:00

Destinations

Manchester Art Gallery-Old Trafford

Mode of transportation

Bus and Tram

Boarded bus from Liverpool, Coach Station, Norton St, Merseyside to Manchester Central Coach Station , Charlton St, Great Manchester, approx 55mins.

Tram ride from St Petersquare, Manchester to Stretford, approx 10mins

Outside the Art Gallery- Free entrance! Me like ;)

Yes, sangat relaxing dalam gallery tu. Too bad we spent so little time there as we had to head to Old Trafford dulu sebab takut the Man Utd Store tutup. I tak puas tengok all the artwork on display. Guess that we didn't plan our journey to Manchester betul2. Yela, kinda alien to the place. Now that we know our way hopefully to go to Manchester again after Christmas, Insya-Allah.

I love the souvenir store. Rasa macam nak beli semua! hahaha.

Next destination- Definitely NOT for MAN UTD supporters. Thanks :p

The tram to Old Trafford. *kenapa la i nampak macam budak kecik dalam pic ni*

My brother was mumbling the whole time when we got here. Maklum la he's not a M.U supporter. Kesian. Sorry dik, you were at the wrong place. Heheh

HOYEAH!

I swear that my brother was tensed sebab kena lepak sini lama to take pics of us, the Man Utd fans. Oh i pity you dear brother. HAHAH! *nasib baik la dia jenis tak baca blog aku*

We headed back to town at around 4.15pm. Shorter days here during winter. So hari pun dah gelap as if it was already 8pm. Pegi makan kat McD dulu then boarded the 5.30pm bus to Liverpool. Sampai Liverpool Station, we all jalan balik rumah dalam 20mins cam tu. Since, i got here, hari-hari berjalan. Not jalan-jalan makan angin but as in jalan WALKING. Pegi kedai pun berjalan je. Kalau kat KL, nak pegi kedai dekat pun nak naik kereta. Ngada betul.

Till next post!

*Tired*

Running with the snow all over

2010-12-20T01:16:00.004+08:00

End of the 1st week

It was a sunny day today accompanied with the clear blue sky. It reminded me of the nice mornings or evenings back home (light wind would be a bonus). Just the perfect weather to go for a good run or LSD. But today was different back home as the temperature was -5 degrees when i went out running at about 12.15pm. The road to the park was quite slippery so i had to go slow with my pace. So yea when i got to the park, saw few kids playing around but no one running. I was the only one running this afternoon though. Hahha. I noticed that i didnt feel tired while running. I guess that the air was dry unlike back home where the air was more humid and that i had to breathe in more moisture which makes me feel tired easily due to that. Overall, i enjoyed my 40 minutes slow run today. In fact, i think i enjoy running in the cold more.

Running uphill. Notice the blue and bright sky. LOVES!

My pink custom made ADIZERO ACE AGAINST the white snow

Headed to Tesco after that to get some food ;). Would definitely go out for runs again if the bright sun is out again :)

1st snow experience

2010-12-18T20:26:00.002+08:00

My first snow experience

It snowed heavily last night. It was really nice. I wished that mom and dad was with us. Missing them and missing others too back home. But hati macam deny semua perasaan tu. I don't know why. Konon hati and perasaan kental la..

Malakoff run will be held tomorrow morning. I'm gonna miss that run as i was supposed to end my running events this year with that event. Rasa sedih pun ada. I miss running back home. I miss doing LSDs in the weekends. I miss running at KLCC park and also at the track of UPM stadium. *hmm, dalam diam u r running for malakoff?, terasanya sebab dapat tau pun dari orang lain. Anyway, have fun ya? *

Hm, tadi nampak ada orang running in the snow. I think u should go do that and experience it. Tetiba rasa down, hati tersentuh pun ada. I think i should go out. Till next post!

Running in the cold

2010-12-16T02:50:00.004+08:00

4th day in Minster Court, Merseyside Liverpool. It's 6 degrees here while I'm blogging this. Didn't do much today as we wanted to just lepak2 at home. But my feet was "gatal" to go run outdoors although tengah sejuk macam duduk dalam fridge. I miss the warm weather back home. Especially the nice evening weather accompanied by the clear blue sky, the perfect set to go out for a good 6-8km run. I brought my running shoes along with me (curi2 bawak as my mom told me NOT to go run in the cold.. Haha). Sorry mom, anak you ni sangat degil! ;). The park was nearby my brother's place which is not so bad. So yea, did 2.45km of running. I didn't feel tired (weather wasn't humid, udara kering so senang nak breathe) and i felt that i wanted to run further but i kesian kat my cousin who tagged along to the park and was sitted at the cold bench waiting for me to finish my run. Takkan la nak run another 5km kan?..Beku la cousin kesayangan saya tu.. Haha. So yea, if the temperature is fine this next 2 days. I'll try and go 5-6km pula. Just hope it wont snow yet la.. Hahah. It was a good experience though.

Lari naik bukit

I miss participating in events. Will miss Malakoff this year. The final run of the year.

Minster Court and City Central

2010-12-14T11:41:00.006+08:00

Hye peeps. It's almost 4am while i'm blogging this. I still have this funny sleeping time here since kat sini 5pm dah gelap. So mindset kalau dah gelap means time utk tido. So yea, i slept at 645pm and now i'm wide awake. My brother cakap i ni pelik. Hey! I'm still adjusting ok! (ok mainly sebab dah tak tau nk buat ape kan smlm since there's only one broadband usb and the the boys smlm used it sebab nak tengok Man U v Arsenal. So i on the other hand just read the running mags i bought then terus tertido). And the only time i can use the broadband is when the boys are sleeping. Hahah

MINSTER COURT, MERSEYSIDE

It's where my brother leaves. It's 5 mins walk to Uni of Liverpool, 25mins walk to the city center and 30 mins walk to his campus. It's a nice place la. Just love the atmosphere while walking to town. I just love the buildings. It's so UK! ahahah. *Duhhhh!*. I tak sempat snap lots of pics yesterday when i was out as my camera was out of batt. Just managed to snap a few but will definitely do so tomorrow!.

City Central

We all "attacked" Primark first!. OMG!, sangat besar and best!. And yea, ramai shoppers kat sana i as Primark was the place to shops from shirts, jeans, tops to winter attire at affordable prices. I got myself the necessary yesterday as i wanted to keep my money for even more crazy bargains as Christmas is coming and not to forget BOXING DAY too!. Ha, jangan sampai aku boxing sebab nak berebut barang sudah. Haha.

Next store we went was Sportsdirect.com. Hahah, something like studio R back in KL. Some things were cheap but i guess some were better off bought in KL. I noticed that kedai tu banyak jual last season's stuff. But its ok i guess depending on what you want to get la. To d1, if you are here, i don't think you'll be too impressed. Rasa-rasanya i kena pegi cari tempat lain yang lagi best kot? Hahah. Btw, i didn't get anything from that sportstore. Oh, just that i laid my eyes on that boots and I'm thinking to get it nanti.

Basically yesterday's outing was to like check out on places and survey on things despite on buying the attire we needed to keep ourselves warm. Planning to jalan2 to Manchester and London as few friends "spotted" my whereabouts. Haha. See how it goes and if the budget permits us to do so.

Outside adik's apartment

Amik berkat sikit *ehem2*

walking to city central

Please abaikan the big paperbag held in my hand :p

yawwwns!!! Till next update!

Hello Liverpool!

2010-12-13T14:26:00.003+08:00

3 FREEZING weeks

It's 6 plus am here in Minster Court as i blog this. Temperature now might be 2 degrees i think. It's really cold macam duduk dalam freezer. My cousin and I arrived Manchester Airport yesterday around 12pm (around 6pm Malaysian time). My brother waited for us there and we took the train home to his place. It was like 1 1/2 hours ride. Then walked home for another 20 minutes with our luggages. Dah la penat duduk dalam airplane pastu kena nak train plak. Memang rasa macam nak patah pinggang. Dah la sejuk. Anyway, gotta gagahkan diri for 3 freezing weeks here. ;)

Emirates

We boarded Emirates Airlines to Dubai first then continued our journey to Manchester. I hate long flights la. Kalau naik biz class takpe gak. Heheh. *ngada tul*. Thank god that there were lots of movies to watch and songs to listen. Movies pun banyak yang latest. So i pun watched la the movies yang i tak dapat tgk back in kl like Step Up 3 and Back Up plan. Most of my time was spent sleeping in the plane. Oh the food served pun was not that bad. Yumss jugak la..Haha.

DAY 1

I'm waiting for the boys to get up from sleep. Kinda hungry but i need to some stretches in a bit. Dah ler dah 1 week plus tak run. Speaking of run. Saw a young lady running near the neighbourhood here. pakai shorts lagi. gila gagah betul minah salleh ni. I plan to go runnin here gak but my brother told me that to do so dlm later afternoons la. So yea, gonna experience running in the cold here. Hehehe ;). Will be going to Primark today as well to get some winter clothes and a pair of boots. Nak pegi jalan2 snap2 pics jugak :)

In the train heading to Liverpool

Will update more soon!

Monkey Love

2010-12-10T13:03:00.004+08:00

Pheww, i'm done with packing the major things to bring for my holidays. So far everything's is in the luggage just that i need to re-check tomorrow before dad start pad-locking all 3 luggages (1 luggage penuh makanan untuk adik tersayang).

Anyway, i've been getting lots of wedding invitations lately. Yelakan, Decembers are always the best time to have wedding receptions and all. But too bad that i could attend them all as i won't be around. Today, i saw pics of my ex-bf's wedding pics on his fb (bf masa high school, monkey love bak kata orang tua). But to my surprise, he got married to someone else. As far as i know he was dating this girl during his Uni days for quite long. Told my mom about it. And she asked me "bagus la dia dah kawin, kenapa? kakak tersentap ke?". Hahah. Memang la tak tersentap. Kisah lama kot. Besides, it was only monkey love. *tapi sebenarnya hati tersentap sket la sebab dia dapat kawin dulu before i do*. Haha. Takpela, jodoh dia sampai cepat. So congrats Mr Z. Thanks for the wedding invite. Would love to come to see you on the pelamin but i won't be around on your joyous day.

Another monkey love i had when i was in matriculation. OMG, only those close to me knows how deeply in (monkey) love with him at that time. We were really close. But too bad that we were not meant to be together. I still remember the one day when he called crying and telling me that i didn't want to fly to Ireland to pursue his medical degree as he wanted to pursue his degree in Architecture. But guess that God knows best and his now a Doctor and yes, doctor yang boleh tahan handsome that orang yang sakit pun nak jadi sakit sebab nak jumpa dia. Haha

During uni days pun i still entangles myself with monkey love. Hmm, kalau nak cerita kat sini, untill tomorrow pun tak habis. But i guess that i'll just keep that to myself and reminiscing it once in awhile will always me chuckle and telling myself that all of these stories and best told to my future kids and grandkids.

So, do you have any monkey love stories to share as well?

p/s: Cause i'm leaving on a jet plane, and will definitely be back!

8 December 2010

2010-12-08T22:54:00.003+08:00

Ran some errands today. Sent mom to the tailor. I went to the bank, to the pharmacy, got more running magazines and then to celcom center. Thought of activating my roaming service and was told i had to pay RM300 for it? Haih. Tak payah la, terima kasih je la. Baik la i beli telco kat Uk je. £15 je. Which is about RM75. Ok la kot. Dari nak bayar RM300. Will only be in UK for 3 weeks not la 3 months kan. Anyway...settled for the £15 sim card that my bro will get me once i reach there.

This past few days rasa macam haru je. Sedih pun ada. 1st reason was that i'll be travelling for the 1st time without my parents. 2nd reason is that i've not been away so far and agak lama from my parents and my closest. I realized that my god sister have not been calling/bbm-ing me for the past 2 days. I'm missing her already and later today i read her fb status which went like this

"My fgs @Fira Tirona will be having a white christmas ...& A Jolly .. well deserve Holiday!Happy Holidays kiddo!"

I felt like crying when she posted that on facebook. It's like as if im going so long. I will miss her and i will definitely miss her cute kids. Wished that all of them could tagged along and enjoy the trip with me. Then come my aunt who commented on the status update. Lagi la made me feel so sedih. :(

I've already packed my things. I think i need to recheck what's in the luggage. Rasa macam banyak la benda pulak dalam bag tu. I'm thinking of bringing my running shoes as well. My bro told me that there are still people running outdoors just that you've got to wrap yourself well la. So yea, i think i'm gonna bring my running shoes. hehe ;). Will bring 1 luggage to store food. Mom beli macam2 la. Maggi la, cube pati ayam la, rempah ratus la, sambal ikan bilis la, serunding la, kerepek la, kuih ros la...haihh..macam2 la ..i dah rasa macam pengekport makanan plak. Hehe

Had cravings for spaghetti carbonara at Murni's. Was there just now with Nana, Sha and Faiz. Sangat happy to get to see them. Good food enjoyed with good company is the best for me. I'm gonna miss you guys...Missing u guy already!. Anyhow, puas hati dapat makan carbonara kat sana and the drink "I LOVE U" is simply awesome!. Next this to satisfy my cravings would be McD's Prosperity Burger and Curly Fries. Tu cari on Friday la since esok my unimates nak treat me makan kat Manhattan Fish Market..I LOVE MY FRIENDS. HAHA. *tetiba*...U people so sweet la, i nak pegi 3 minggu je..Bukannya 3 tahun. LOL ;)

Kenyang perut suka hati. G'nite Ya'll!

The Unproductive Week

2010-12-05T13:23:00.003+08:00

1 week

1 week left before i leave for UK, barang pun tak pack lagi. Rasa macam berat hati nak pegi sebab still memikirkan thesis. But since I've already submitted Chaps 1-4 for the Supervisor to read ok kot?. What i need to do is just to correct my paper (dah bape kali dah buat correction sampai nak termuntah darah) and email it to him by this week.

Tadi, pegi amik some stuff for winter from my best friend. Went out with her and her daughter. Comel tak igt betul anak angkat aku tu. Pipi selambak, peha mcm KFC. Haihh, kalau kawin 2 tahun lepas, confirm anak aku dah nak masuk umur setahun. Siap la aku masukkan TRIKIDZ nanti. Tapi buat masa skrg ni, anak2 buah aku jela akan menjadi mangsa untuk masuk TRIKIDZ nanti.. HAHAH.

1 week juga

I've not been training consistently this week. Tak tau la nape. Rasanya baru 8km je cover. Orang lain HARI-HARI lari 8KM. Haih.. Ape nak jadi la ni. This week rasa macam takde mood. Dah la tgh jiwa kacau. Penat la bercinta ni kalau most of the time nak argue. Lari pun tak letih macam gaduh tau. At least kalau penat2 lari pun dapat air, dapat medal dapat goodie bag. Ni kalau gaduh, dapat sakit hati/jiwa/otak and segala jenis sakit la. Ni i nk gi UK 3 minggu baru la nk baik-baik. Bukan senang ok nak pujuk2 aku. Maybe the best thing to do is just let it be la. Malas dah nk fikir.

3 weeks

The MUCH needed holiday. Dapat main snow, nak shopping masa BOXING DAY, Christmas-ing and New year kat sini. Will be back 3rd of Jan. But im definitely gonna miss my running sessions. So lps balik dari holiday, harus lah training kaw2 utk my 1st 21km race. Borneo here i come!

Yesterday

Congrats FaR on your engagement!. Sgt simple majlis semalam. Rilex and tenang je. Makan pun best.hihihi. After that i headed to Sg Wang to get some magz for me to read on the airplane nanti. KL sgt HAVOC smlm. I bawak kereta pun macam gangster dari kampung mana ntah. Celah sini, celah sana. Potong sana, potong sini. Nasib baik la kereta cute. Haha. Dapat magazine pegi plak my cuzin's house kat keramat. Dalam rmh pun havoc, mcm masuk kidsport plak. yang sorang dok main drums. Yang sorang tu buat aksi acrobatic, yang sorang tu nangis2. Haih, kanak2.

Tapi macam mana pun, my heart was at ease when i got to meet you. I wonder if you felt the same way too?

p/s: sorry la lambat sejam...jam sgt!

(Ehhhh, kenapa tetiba berbunga2 ni? Perlukah?)

Ok, nak pegi tgk CSI jap. Fav tu. Till next post!

What i feel inside

2010-11-27T18:17:00.002+08:00

My heart is broken

All my scars are open

I feel like running away right now

Let me be and let me heal

Langkah bendul

2010-11-24T12:30:00.002+08:00

This morning my brother called home to talk to my mom. They had like a 20 minute conversation. I was upstairs doing my work. Went down to have breakfast and suddenly my mom told me this

Mama: Adik kata he wants to get married lepas dia habis belajar. He said dia tak nak kawin lambat *by time he finishes his studies he will be 27, hence i will be 28*

Me: Say what Ma?

Mama: Ye kak, dia nak kawin lepas belajar *with her facial expression yang sgt disappointed*

Me: *dalam hati said* Confirm la adik aku langkah bendul aku ni. -__-''

OMG, what will happen to me if he really gets married first?????

Missed it!

2010-11-23T23:33:00.003+08:00

I got up this morning feeling rather funny. It felt that that i missed/was missing something. More like the feeling of that there's was something that i needed to do. Couldn't think of that particular task that i was supposed to do that spur moment and deep down my heart said that that particular task was really REALLY important.

By 9am i was already infront of my lappie. Thesis related files were already opened (Fb, blog, semua pun bukak jugak la kan. Tu wajib. Rutin harian.Haha). Anyway, today i tergerak hati sangat to open up my portal at the School of Graduate Studies website. Was scrolling the web page till i saw a DATELINE that i TOTALLY FORGOT!. I TOTALLY FORGOT that i've got submit my thesis progress report online!. At that moment, i was so worried, upset , my mood for thesis today was disturbed and macam2 la. Macam mana la boleh jadi macam ni? Haihhh

FYI, i tak penah lupa nak submit my report online before the dateline during previous sems. So yea, called up the SGS office. Was asked to write a surat rayuan. To make it short, i type the letter and drove straight to UPM. Was told that the portal will be re-opened again by this week. Felt relieved but then again, this was unnecessary if i was more alert. Yea, to be more ALERT like when my Blackberry go beep beep even when i'm sleeping. Tu lagi satu hal, additive stuff.

I've learned my lesson for today. From today onwards, i've got to jot down everything on my organizer. Takpun, put all important dates on my BB and to check them EVERY SINGLE DAY. Anyway, i'm taking today on a positive note as getting/being MORE STRESS DOES NOT make things easier for me. I guess that a little stress is good to push one's self but NOT TOO much that it can't be handled.

To : FARAH WAHIDA ZA'ABA

This post is dedicated to you. And if you're reading this, lets finish up our thesis A.S.A.P shall we? I cannot tahan already lar! Haha :)

P/s: i think i need to go run esok as i've not been running since monday, i think i need new high heels as i missed hunting for oh so pretty shoes, and i think i'm craving for that brownie cheesecake at La Manila

Emotion

2010-11-18T16:59:00.003+08:00

Terasa emotional pulak today. Thanks to Cik P yang datang sering mengunjungi ku every month. Tu takpe, dia suka buat i craving macam2 benda. Brownie cheese cake la, waffle la, goreng pisang la, keropok lekor la and macam2. Kalau seminggu sebelum Cik P datang lagi la teruk my cravings. aduhai, kalau dah pregnant nanti ntah macam mana la kan. Haha. Ni pun dok tengah typing ni tengah kunyah almond cookies mama buat semalam. Bukan sebab craving sgt pun tapi sebab belum makan ape lagi. Ha, nak jadikan cerita bila Cik P datang first day dia suka buat i tak berapa nak makan, mungkin sebab dia dah bagi i chance bedal macam2 kot? Hahah

Tapi cerita Cik P ni bukan la main topic sgt to today's post. Ok la mungkin sket la sebab emosi harini dipengaruhi oleh Cik P gak sebab dia suka main2 ngn emosi i sampai hormones dalam badan saya ni meronta2. Haih...kau ni Cik P. Pasal kau gak la aku tak dapat nak run 6KM pagi tadi. Dan sekarang emosi aku aku tak stabil macam zarah2 yang sedang bergerak secara rawak tau. Ishhh

Bila dah emosi ni macam2 la fikir kan. Hati pun jadi bunga2, jadi sensitive. Tapi boleh cover lagi la. Kalau kat rumah tak boleh nak cover sgt sebab bila tgk drama sedih, boleh menangis sampai mata lebam. Pastu terigt plak kisah2 zaman lampau. Haihh..overacting sungguh la. Tapi tetiba plak macam terasa macam i might have fallen for someone. Kkdg rasa macam a 17 year old girl plak nak fall2 for someone. Tapi perasaan tu bukan je harini. Tapi sejak 1st day rasa macam tu. OMG. sangat pelik. Hari2 selalu nk deny kan feeling tu.. Tapi makin lama makin.......

Sangat emotional la harini. Tetiba terasa yang trip to Liverpool tu satu idea yang baik untuk diriku. Nak tengok gak sape yang paling concern terhadap diriku yang cute ni.Eh, cute plak. dah.OK nak pegi makan! Bye!

Everybody needs a little time away

2010-11-15T13:11:00.004+08:00

A ticket to Liverpool has been purchased. Leaving on the 13th of dec at 2am. Insya-Allah. Flying on Emirates. A very needed holiday. A time for myself to think about myself. Perlu fikir pasal kesudahan masters, career, activiti2 larian dan kisah cinta. Cant' wait. Mama cakap. "pegi la holiday tu.jumpa adik. Go rilex your mind and enjoy yourself. Lari2 tu semua next year boleh start balik". Baik la ratu hatiku. Kekadang bagus gak bila berjauhan dengan orang yang rapat2 dengan kita ni. Tengok diorang ingat/rindu tak kat kita ni kan? Hahah

However, im so gonna miss my running sessions. Yelah, kat sana nak lari cam mana? SEJOK kot?.Makan2 jelah. Penuh la kamisukamakanbest punya blog page with my posts on good food when i'm there nanti. Confirm team kamisukanbest suka. Hahah. So yeah!. Excited nak pegi. Dan paling excited masa Boxing day nanti..SHOPPING!

p/s:

semalam pencinta kasut pegi lari 22km. Tapi last 5km pencinta kasut terpaksa berjalan sebab kaki cramp sampai terduduk jap kat atas jalanraya. ahaha.
Pencinta kasut have been getting weird dreams lately. Oh my!..

Our Food Blog

2010-11-12T14:12:00.003+08:00

My course mates and i decided to create a food blog since we love adventuring good food at fun places. The blog will be written in Bahasa Malaysia mainly. However, posts in English will also be featured once in awhile. Pardon the layout of the page as it's still under construction. You know la how busy postgraduates are (but in our case, we tend to get easily distracted by the existence of good food.LOL).

Anyways, please welcome our food blog

KAMISUKAMAKANBEST

Which simply means, we love eating good food. Haha

Pilot entry has been done by one of my fellow foodies. Will update on our regarding our Dim Sum feast at Quality Hotel Shah Alam. So stay tuned and do follow our food blog ;)

Sneak preview of the session ;)

p/s: suka kasut, suka lari and suka makan also

Hilang Konsentrasi

2010-11-10T15:30:00.004+08:00

Wednesday it is today

*hm ,kalau time degree dulu hari rabu selalunya keluar pegi tengok wayang ataupun main bowling takpun lepak kat rafi sampai lebam*

Macam biasa la, my day will start off with breakfast with the parents.Makan2, borak2, gelak2, pastu kekadang tu boleh macam argue2 sket..tapi lepas tu baik balik..So lepas tu mengadap plak laptop penuh ngn open files untuk buat thesis. Meja plak bersepah ngan printed articles untuk dibuat reference. Jenuh, letih, nyampah, meluat semua ada. Tapi satu je yang menjadi my motivation sekarang

"bersusah-susah dahulu,bersenang-senang kemudian"

yes, saya nak merasa the sweetness of success tu. Tak sabar rasanya. Jiwa hari2 meronta. Tapi takpe, belum sampai tahap meroyan lagi. Tak kisah la orang nak cakap i ni lambat ke, macam siput ke nak siapkan thesis. Tak kisah la, i WILL reach that finish line soon. Ha, macam bila masuk race berlari la, tak kisah la kalau terstop kejap ke sebab nak kena berlari naik bukit takpun stop kejap sebab naik minum air. JANJI sampai finish line.

Ok, tipu la kan kalau i kata kalau ni sangat focus ngan thesis 24 jam kan. Ni pun dah start blog ni pun dah tanda2 hilang konsentrasi. Kononnya otak tepu la kan..Tak boleh nak fikir the ight and strong words to construct a paragraph (ceh, kekadang, sebaris ayat pun terkial2 nak buat). Oh well, i can be a perfectionist at times. Tapi bila draft dah sampai kat tangan Supervisor yang juga Timbalan Dekan Fakulti, takde la perfect mana pun..Dah tu, hantar pun kat perfectionist kan. Sape la kita ni kan. Haihh..Takpe2, but im learning from the best, so harap2 nanti grad pun jadi the BEST jugak la..Mudah-mudahan.AMIN..

Tapi sebenarnya, hari ni i stumbled upon a few blogs yang menarik. I find their blogs very expressive. I love how they write their blogs. Dalam bahasa jiwa bangsa ada, dalam English pun ada. Nama blog pun menarik/unique.Sangat best kot. Tu yang hilang konsentrasi tu.

"Aku
tidak tulis puisi
kerana hidup aku
ialah puisi"

Dari blog: PINTUSUKAHATI

Suka sangat line "kerana hidup aku ialah puisi". Mesti jiwa kental tapi hati lembut orang ni. hahaha. jangan marah eh si blogger post ni. Hidup saya juga seperti anda. Tapi bukan puisi la, tapi dramatic. ;). Another interesting fact about this blog is that it is shared by 9 people. So u get to read blogposts from each 9 of them.

"Aku mahu pergi jauh,
Hilang dalam kelam perlahan-lahan,
Tergelam dalam laut seperti sauh,
perlahan-lahan tanpa di tahan..."

Dari blog: Blog Orang Otak Kosong

Saya mahu pergi jauh. Pergi merehatkan minda. Tiket dah beli yeay!. Haih, blogger blog orang tak kosong, awak nak pegi mana jauh2 tu? hehe

"Budu dan Belacan: busuk tapi sedap"

That's her (Su Anna Joe) blog title. Haha. Tapi betul ape, dua2 pun busuk. Tapi bila dah kena nasi panas damnn! sedap kan? lagi2 kalau ada plak ikan keli bakar and ulam...oh my, yum yum. hihi

Blog yang best utk dibaca. Do visit her blog SU ANNA JOE. A blogger mom, a photographer and she is also stylish!

OK!, idea nak writing dah datang balik! Kembali ke reality!

p/s: rindu power rangers merah

Food blog

2010-11-08T12:46:00.001+08:00

A project by:

KAKI MAKAN

COMING SOON

Inspiring

2010-11-07T12:40:00.002+08:00

I LOVE THIS!

This is something that i've been searching for all this while. A "running girl" pendant". It's so ME la!...Can someone please surprise me with this? :)

Link:

TARMA DESIGNS

Concern

2010-11-07T10:42:00.002+08:00

How would u feel if there's someone who constantly follows your blog?

How would you feel when someone messages you personally after reading your blog and asked on how you are feeling?

I feel that person is so aware of my happenings, concern at the same time although we don't get to see each other often.

But one thing for sure is when get to see that person, i feel very much happy. Like an adrenaline rush while running

So its all smiles today.

To you if you are reading this, you just made my day

:)

All Cried Out

2010-11-06T01:57:00.001+08:00

Pencinta kasut has never cried so much before

Time Off

2010-11-04T15:29:00.002+08:00

I feel numb today.

Let time tell.

Let time heal

One way to divert the distractions are to focus on what i'm doing and keep on running to clear my mind, clear my thoughts

I need time for myself. I need time to re-analyze. I need time to refresh.

Dear god, please grant me the strength. Guide me to the right path.

AMIN

Cinta bukan sedekah

2010-11-03T10:43:00.003+08:00

Kalau hati dah tak ada CINTA

I was having a conversation about love with a friend. Not really close. But i guess sometimes it's best to talk to someone yang macam ala2 stranger. Ada orang cakap kalau bercerita tentang ape2 je to someone dalam bus ke dalam train ke kat taman mana2 ke, u will feel relieved for a moment plus after that you won't see that person anymore kan? Tapi lagi best kalau bila bercerita kat orang tu pasal whatever is in your mind and that he/she understands you. Ala, cerita je, lg pun after that you won't be seeing that person anymore kan? Confirm la lps tu dia lupa. Tapi in my case orang yg share cerita ni i akan jumpa gak la...tapi not often.

I was talking (chatting on fb would be more appropriate i guess) to this person. Asked for some opinions and all. And suddenly this statement popped out.

CINTA BUKAN SEDEKAH. KALAU KESIAN THEN IT'S WRONG

Oh damn, tersentap sekejap. Am i already in that stage?. My mom kept on asking on what's wrong with me. But i know that she knows. But she did told me that to think about it properly and she asked me to keep my options open and to open up my mind.

What is wrong with me? Maybe it has been too long la. Sometimes i just need the space for myself. Or maybe i need someone that is compatible like me. A reflection of me maybe. Tak banyak tapi sikit pun jadi la. I definitely one to spend my whole life with someone that could share lots of things with me. Am i asking for too much? Maybe.

p/s:Tapi cintaku terhadap kasut adalah abadi

Forget and be forgotten

2010-11-01T00:00:00.003+08:00

Bagai kacang lupakan kulit

Sometime we forget on where we stand. Pepatah melayu kata lupa daratan

Ceh, ni apehal plak tetiba emo ni?.

Hm, teringat kisah silam kot. Sebab tak semestinya orang tu akan baik/ingat kat kita kalau kita terlalu baik hati atau seangkatan dengannya dengan orang tu

I've experienced this lots of times. Tak kisah la relative sendiri ke, kawan-kawan ke or "kawan karib selamanya" a.ka. bff (best friend forever)

Will u know if someone would do that to you?. I can

TEKAD

Saya, CikFiraTirona bertekad untuk tidak masuk apa2 race mulai bulan depan sehingga tahun depan. Sekian.

SHOPPING

Rasa macam nak beli spek baru la.. Oh well, i have this long term relationship with this thing. Rasa-rasanya relationship for LIFE!. Kalau rasa2 macam nak ada rupa macam Eva Longoria ke, Kim Kardashian ke, pakai la contact lens yg berkaler2 tu atau pakai jenis yang bagi effect mata besar macam doll tu. Oh well, di sebalik kanta lekap tu semua. Ku tetap NERD. Ala-ala macam cerita Ugly Betty tu.. Haip! .Favourite saya tu ok?!.Hahah.Siap beli ada collection lagi sampai season 4. ;)

Rasa jugak macam nak beli kasut baru. Me wants to get new pair of Wedge shoe la. Yang ada tu tapak macam nak tercabut je ala2 seperti nk say SAYONARA to me. I really like that wedge, kasi effect yang sexy pada diri i..Oppps,, terover plak!. Hahahah

1 NOv 2010

Hello November! Pls be kind to me.. thanks! :)

Kembali pulih

2010-10-29T00:00:00.003+08:00

Hati dan perasaan

Takde la pulih sgt.Ok2 je. takkan la every minute nak emo2 kan? memang la nak kena ketuk kan. happy2 tu perlu. hidup kena kasi meriah sket.kalau yang terbaca blogpost saya yang tetiba teremo tu before this.sila abaikan ok?. sekian.hihihi :P. Tapi, queen of my heart ada pesan sesuatu tentang hati dan perasaan. Saya akan ikut nasihat ratu hatiku :)

Running routine

Yeah! I could run again. I was at KLCC park tadi. I just so love that place. Sgt best. Ramai runners. Rasa motivated. Tapi sebenarnya motivated bukan pasal runners yang ramai. tapi adalah.heheh.biarlah hatiku je yang tau.. My leg did hurt a bit la while running just now. But i tak nak la manjakan sgt as i've not been running for like almost 2 weeks. Rasa cam karat sgt urat saraf. Run and walked. Takde la gagah sgt berlari all the way.baru baik la katakan. cannot la gopoh2 kan. slow and easy does it :). Sempat la gak i melemparkan senyuman kat mamat seorang ni that was running the opposite direction of me. dah tu, dia dok pandang2 i.. comel kot saya ni..hahah *perasan*. senyum la je la, w'pun sket je. Kata senyum tu sedekah kan?. Tapi yang penting la kan, ada motivator kat sebelah i untuk berlari. Sorry la yer motivatorku, harini cm terlari laju plak. bukan niat nk lari dari u eh, tapi mcm nak lepaskan gian nk lari.maklum la dah lama sgt tak running. Siap kena tegur lagi "fira, asal laju sgt ni?".ha amik...siap sebut nama aku lagi which is very rare.kelakar pun ada. But overall, today's run was nice altho just 4k. Sgt best la klcc park tu. Its so gonna be one of my fav spots to go running.love the track. So from now on if i happen to be in Uni, i can just drop by in the evening, go run.chill and then go home. by the time sampai rumah sure terus FLAT.ahah.macam best

Thesis

Kembali on track. SKET JE LAGI FIRA OII!. FOCUS! You'll get to taste of success once u r done with it (walaupun lembab macam siput). Insya-Allah. Got to SPEEED THINGS UP!. Haih, esok nak kena jumpa Supervisor. Confirm la akan dengar bebelan yang membina dia tu. Sempat lagi i ni kan. tgh dok writing thesis. sempat lagi nk blog. Tkpela,therapy minda. (ha yela tu, nak sedapkan hati). ahahah

1 month

Nak membawa diri. konon2 cam cerita Eat Pray Love la kan. Ngada tak?. Harap2 plan jadi. Will be doing Christmas and ushering the new year English Man's style.hohohoho :P. i wanna end the year with my dear brother. Rindu u dik! sob sob

2011

Me prays for a good one for me. AMIN! Oh, lupa plak kena buat reservation hotel nk pegi phuket bulan feb tahun depan. Rasa macam nak pegi India gak. Tapi mesti ada yang tak puas hati nanti. ahahah :P

p/s: All of this are all bebelan dalam hati brought to life dalam bentuk blog. Rasa macam lega sket sebab not all things are best expressed in words but sometimes are best expressed by writing it down. tak kisah la dalam diary ke, kertas A4 ke mahupun dalam blog.

Ok kembali ke reality!

Tapi...

2010-10-28T09:46:00.001+08:00

It's just complicated

Ignoring it hurts me more

No running for a month

2010-10-23T09:17:00.004+08:00

It has been 1 week since i fell sick and it has been 2 weeks that my left leg (actually the thigh) is causing me pain. Before i went to seek medical advice, i kept on with my training routines and even allowed myself to compete in the Nike KL City 5km run. Hati saya sangat degil ok. I kept on complaining about the pain but what i did was just go see my pharmacist, told her my problem-she gave me some meds-told me NOT to run for at least a month-yada yada-...but yeah i still did. Till today the pain is still here. PADAN MUKA!

Anyway, a day before Mizuno Wave Run, i was feeling rather unwell, i started to get muscle strains on my upper back. I tot it was just like "ala, maybe due to long hours doing work on the laptop kot?".That very night, i suddenly felt a sharp muscle pull on my chest and I know that very moment that I was in DEEP trouble. True enough, i couldn't get up the next day. Bye2 Mizuno run. I was devastated.

Dragged myself the next day to see the doctor (2 kali jumpa). Doctor diagnosed (2nd time jumpa doctor lain, same diagnose also) "over train and over stress, your muscles fibers might be torn. please rest and NO RUNNIN for the TIME BEING.". What can i say? I just kept quiet. Was given painkillers, muscle relaxant tablets and analgesic cream.

Here i am now. at home. resting, hibernating while my friends are all busy gearing up for PowerMan and PBIM. Of course la rasa sedih. hari-hari tengok je my running shoes tapi cannot pakai. :(. But its ok, i hope to recover fast so that i could run again!

Meanwhile, i should just concentrate on my never ending thesis and go dig on other runner's blogs to get some INSPIRATION.hahah

Have a great weekend!

Ubud Hanging Gardens, Bali

2010-10-21T17:55:00.011+08:00

I've been unwell for a couple of days. Tengah sakit2 macam ni pun still kena ngadap thesis yang never ending. Prof pun call soh buat corrections, dengan suara orang sakit dengan nada yang sangat kesian. i jawab "ok Doctor". With my aching body i walked into my room to see check out what was wrong with my paper. Tapi otakku blank sangat. Thus, decided to read on people's blog konon nak amik sedikit inspirasi. Tetiba i stumbled upon something yang menarik. I was like kinda smiling (effect orang demam, so cam weng sket kot?) while looking at it.

First look, terus jatuh hati. First look, terasa macam dalam cerita Eat Pray Love (yang i tengok 2 kali. 1st time tgk tak berapa nangis sebab nak cover ayu, 2nd time pegi nangis tak ingat punya sebab pegi sorang. plus kat TGV kepong time tu 5 orang je kot tgk EPL?haha).. OMG!, sangat nak pergi!!!

Click on the link below
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Ubud Hanging Gardens, Bali

One word to describe this: serenity

Check out the pool design. omg!.

the spectacular view: blue sky, really green forest. oh so fresh. loves

romantic candle light dinner *ehem2*

So cantek rite? click on to the link. Confirm u all terngaga tengok this place. Sebab i myself pun was like clicking onto the pics again and again and again while imagining myself there having fun relaxing, soul cleansing and enjoying nature. Nak kumpul duit la macam ni.

Ok! back to reality! Mana la i letak calculator i ni. Sighhh

p/s: pencinta kasut sgt merindui seseorang ketika ini (haha.sempat)

A poem. No reason.Just cause

2010-10-20T00:05:00.001+08:00

Until I Met You

Before I met you,
I thought I was happy,
and I was,
but I had never known
the rich contentment,
deep satisfaction,
and total fulfillment
you brought to me
when you came into my life.
Before I met you,
I felt a lot of things,
good things,
but I had never experienced
the indescribably intense
feelings I have for you.
Before I met you,
I thought I knew myself,
and I did,
but you looked deep inside me
and found fresh new things
for us to share.
Before I met you,
I thought I knew about love,
but I didn’t,

until I met you.

-found this while googling for something else-

My new love

2010-10-09T13:25:00.004+08:00

Oh I'm so in love right now!!

To my new custome made Adidas Adizero Ace of course!. After days of getting the colors combo right and after getting it revised 2 hours at Adidas Pavillion before i decided that it was to my satisfaction... Here she is!

In fuschia pink, sunny yellow and lime green

With my name embroidered on it to keep me motivated la kan.. hahah

Thanks to D1 for getting the Adination Card for me. If not i've got to pay this shoe full amount but instead i got 50% off. Jangan marah ok?He got himself a pair too...Gonna try out this shoe tomorrow

Nak pegi admire kasut baru saya sekejap. Bye!. Haha

Run Fira Run!

2010-10-04T21:21:00.004+08:00

I've been running for almost a year now. Been participating in events here and there. My fairygodsister is calling my Forrest Gump while some of my friends are impressed with what i'm doing right now. Some will go like "omg! aku nak lari 1km pun boleh semput" haha. Well, i myself pun tak boleh lari as well as now. Even now pun i still have this withdrawal symptom where i can be SO MALAS to go out for my runs every alternate mornings/evenings. I've experienced bruised ankle, strained hamstring and the muscles on my thighs. But then again, it never (so far) have stopped me from running. Family and friends have asked me what motivates me to run? Well, i definitely have my own reason/s on why i started running like seriously till today. Some even asked me if there is SOMEONE who motivates me to run...Haha..Of course la ada..But generally, I'm doing this for myself, for my health and for me to de-stress myself. The people/things that motivates me are secondary. These factors push me to be a better runner.

I've run in various races. The latest event was McD Olympic Day run. It was a 7.7km route. The route that i normally run during the weekends with my running mates but that event made me disappointed about myself. I strained my hamstring 2 days before the race due to "hardcore" training. My mistake la..Shouldn't have. Anyway, i managed to complete the race. got the finishers medal (52nd place). Heheh.Ok i guess?.

Next event would be the Nike Kl City Run. I registered for 5km instead of 10km. Tot of just challenging myself on how fast i could run for 5km. Kinda nervous. My left thigh still hurts tho. Hope that it will recover soon. Excited bout this run tho. :). A week after this event will be the Mizuno wave run (11km) at UPM...my uni. I've got to study the route before the event. Just to get myself familiarize with it.. Takde la kalut macam anak ayam berlari kan.ahaha

Sweetest moment for me was during a charity run organized by Stamford College. Altho only 300++ participants. But i managed to be in the Top 10. And being the only Malay babe in the Top 10, i felt so good bout myself!. Never tot that i could be in the top 10. The route was hilly. Weather was HOT and there were so many cars on the road. If this event did not clashed with Newton's 12km and 25km challenge..jangan harap la i will get into the top 10 kot? ahaha.. takpe2, my rezeki for that event. Better still, the achievement got me more motivated :)

Bib number 170 is number 10. ;)

More running events to come. Planning to register myself for 21km run next. The furthest i have ran in a race was during SHAPE/ MEN'S HEALTH 2010 which was 12KM++. Oh, oh, my custome made Adidas running shoe will be ready this ThurdaY!. Can't wait.

Who says that i only love high heels and ballerina flats?. Haha.

The Polka Dot Baju Kurung

2010-09-20T12:15:00.002+08:00

No reason. Just Cause.

Me wearing tailor-made baju kurung and shawl purchased online from Shawls Collection

To complete and not to compete

2010-09-19T18:43:00.003+08:00

I always tell myself this a night before a 10km race "To complete and not to compete, and most importantly is to enjoy each and every step to the finish line and end the race with pride". Kata-kata semangat la kan as I'm still not capable to compete. Definitely not coz there are many runners yang hebat2 out there. I happen to know one of them. And yes, these people are really fast ok!.

Yesterday was my 1st 10km race after a whole month of fasting and a whole week of enjoying glorious yummylicious rich, fat and cholesterol laden raya food and drink. I was in a nervous wreck ok yesterday. My running mate a.k.a "darjah 1" said that my nervous state was clearly expressed from my face. Oh yes, i was NERVOUS. Thank god i made the effort to go for training during the Ramadhan after buka puasa. If not, i don' t think i could make it thru the 10k race yesterday.

Overall, the race went well but the weather that morning was really hot.The race started around 8.20am. Roads were already flooded with cars and lorries. I studied the route 2 days before so that i could imagine where am i suppose to run and where to expect hilly roads..etc. But i was kinda upset as i actually had to stop running and do the brisk walk for like 2-3 times, to get catch my breath for like 3-4 seconds. I also experienced an uncomfortable sensation ony my right rib cage. It was as if as my muscle was pulled. I was in pain but i still kept on running just like Forrest Gump. hahah. At the moment, i vouched myself to go for more trainings on hilly places to build up on my strenght and endurance.

I was not expecting for any top 10 medals or so. I was just planning to complete the race. But i was thrilled i managed to get into the top 10. Ngam2 10th placing ok. Hahah. It was a good experience and being able to finish the race with a placing really made me feel motivated to perform better in my future runs. Insya-Allah.

So yea, i not only complete yesterday's race but i "accidentally" challenged myself to also compete it in too :). This race was my personal best so far.

To D1, i dedicate this post to you. Congratulations on your placing as well :)

Sepi

2010-09-17T12:19:00.002+08:00

I decided to click on channel 104 yesterday noon. Yela,i felt that its been a long while since i sat down and watch an entire show/program. But yesterday was different. I was sitted on the chair for 2 1/2 hours to watch SEPI.

I'm not gonna elaborate about the whole story but what i can say is that what ever happens in life especially love happens for a reason. There was the scene whereby Afdlin Shauki (AS) who was really in love with Vanida Imran (VI)but at the same time Nasha Aziz (NA) was REALLY in love with AS that made AS really rimas with NS. VI in that plot was already engaged and about to get married. AS eventually opened his heart for NS. But at the end of that plot, VI tak jadi kawin and akhirnya both VI and AS got together again.

2nd plot of the story. This one i really like. In this scene, Tony Eusoff (TE) had just lost his wife. TE ni tokeh kilang kasut by the way. Since he lost his wife. TE started to run/jog to take his sadness away till one day he met Eja. Eja is married. But macam mana ntah, TE fell for Eja. I assumed that Eja felt the same way for TE but she was married. TE said he will wait for Eja no matter what. Tapi, tu la. takde jodoh. TE died and it was his son Eja met again 3 yrs after he died. TE's son return Eja's hair rubberband that she used to "fixed" TE's broken shoes. Oh lupa plak nk cerita that scene. That was how TE and Eja met. On a bench in the park. I seriously menangis watching this plot. It just felt that it was me. Minus being married la.haha

3rd plot. Cant remember the name of the actress. But i only ingat her name in the movie which was Imaan. Imaan lost her bf as he got into a gang fight. He got stabbed and was pushed into the gombak river. Yeke? Tak igt la plak sungai ape..but for sure its the sungai near central market. Anyway, Imaan is a playwriter. She wrote the play "Sepi". A very emotional soul as she oftens imagining that Pierre Andre (PE) he bf was still alive. She is seen to be talking to the PE's soul. At the same time Sein of Ruffedge has the liking for her but she keeps on avoiding him as Imaan thinks that PE was stilll there. So kesian ok. *sobs sobs*. But paling sedih is when Imaan got hit by a car and she got into a comma. She got up from the comma and realized that PE is actually gone and eventually accepted Sein Ruffedge into her life. I guess not ez being her? And i suppose not all guys would actually be patient enough to wait for a girl to recover from her bitter past?

Msg of the story?. I could conclude it (my way) that yes. cinta itu memang indah.but cinta yang dibina itu tk semestinya dimiliki,cinta yang datang itu tak semestinya pasti. Tapi yang pasti jodoh dah pertemuan itu ditangan Ilahi and whatever happens in life, will definitely be with it's reason. You step forward of backwards, your life might just change. .You might be in a relationship for YEARS and suddenly the feeling changes when you met someone you think is the RIGHT one for you or.. you might be already ENGAGED but eventually u decide NOT to get married to that person. Some may think that it is evil to be doing so or some may just think that kita ni tak fikir pasal perasaan orang lain. But you can't be pleasing everyone right?. My mom always tell me not to lie to myself. not to lie with my feelings.

There's a lot for me to express hereTo express in FB or Twitter would be total NO NO for me. Well, this is a place for me to express. So i shall do it here.

- it was just a common interest that was shared together. but i really thought it was only a common interest and i just thought that it would just be that. but i feel differently now. Is there a reason that we met? Question is. am i the only one feeling it? I guess i am-

Let it be? or Let it go? or Just enjoy the moment and go with the flow. Give me the strength to face all this. Or fly me to Santorini to ease my heart

Running For A Cause 2010

2010-09-16T20:25:00.002+08:00

I registered for this event last month as i thought "Why not" as it only costs RM10 for registration. Well, I'm not planning to compete tho but more like to complete the race. But who knows la kan i might get lucky by obtaining a good placing. But i doubt so la. Sure ramai runners yang hebat2.

Oh anyways, the details of the race are as below:

Date: 18th September 2010, Saturday

Venue: Dataran Timur Petaling Jaya, PJ (Opposite Amcord Mall)

Starting Time: 8.15am

Category and Distance:

Men & Women Open - 10km (18 years old and above)

Men Veteran & Women Veteran - 7.5km (40 years old and above)

Junior Boys & Junior Girls - 7.5km (13 years to 18 years old)

Registration Fee: RM10

Wish me LUCK!. Hiks

Kasut Rayaku

2010-09-12T22:35:00.004+08:00

For the love of shoes, i present to you my kasut raya. Never in history la i beli shoes from Adidas. But this one really made my heart melt.

Mookait Ballerina Shoes, Adidas by Stella McCartney

See the lace details? adoii...sgt comels..

Been using it since the 1st day i bought it and i'm loving it as this pair is made for walking i tell you~

8.9.10

2010-09-10T08:15:00.006+08:00

8.9.10

It was 2 days before raya. I was out with a friend doing my last shopping raya and also out to "hibur"kan my hati since my family weren't around. We all sempat naik sky brige KLCC lagi. LOL. Normally, i have my mom to go out with to do our last minute raya shopping. But too bad that she, my dad and my bro are in Liverpool. I'm sure they are missing me as much as i'm missing them.

My/Our mission was to get our custom made running shoe in Pavi. Spent like almost 2 hours designing the shoe, trying out the shoe sizes and all. I guess that both of us are kinda fussy when it comes to getting the perfect shoe done right. Planned to get other stuff but as usual la, when you have the funds, nothing looks nice! But there was a shoe that got my attention while i was in the adidas store. i fell in love with it.

Mookait Ballerina Shoes, Adidas by Stella Mccartney

LOVES! I really like the lace detail on it. So feminine. I'm so gonna get it soon!. Either in this color or in Black.Have to kumpul duit raya la like this.Haha

And oh, the final look of my custom made adizero ace 2 running shoe, MY STYLE

Yeay! Can't wait!. To "Darjah 1" thanks so much for making our mission a successful one. "Mission buat custom made running shoe" accomplished :)

SELAMAT HARI RAYA EVERYONE! MAAF ZAHIR BATIN :)

Read Properly Please

2010-09-07T17:29:00.002+08:00

Was chatting with E.J (bukan nama sebenar) on FB.

Me: Wei, E.J, where have u been.....rindu la wei!

E.J: Firaa!! Aku ada je ni.. Semak sket la..Nak pegi potong RUMPUT

OK, that particular moment i read RUMPUT and RAMBUT.

SO,

Me: OMG! i pun ingat nk pegi potong rambut ar.but sayang la plak as its long now (the original line was edited coz i think what i really said to E.J was so FUNNY!)

E.J: RUMPUT LA! NOT RAMBUT!

Me: HAHAHAHHAHAAH. kambeng betul la..I'm so sorry. Mamai ni *ceh ceh...alasan nak cover la kan*

E.J: Hahaha...NVM

Moral of the story: read properly before saying or commenting or whatever. It might just get nasty. But in my case, its so FUNNY...

Dateline

2010-09-06T06:28:00.000+08:00

10 DECEMBER 2010

The Hari Raya Baju Kurung and The Matching Shoe

2010-09-05T11:36:00.002+08:00

Told my mom earlier this year, lets go green for Hari Raya and she agreed with me. Went to Jalan TAR and got the fabrics we liked and went straight over to our tailor to get it done. Mind you, this was done in Feb and our Hari Raya outfits was ready in June. My mom loves to get our hari raya outfits done as early possible so that her favourite tailor could sew our baju nice2 one.hahah

My baju kurung color is apple green with white polka dots on it. To go with it a matching green pumps i bought from Tangs which i got for 70% off the actual price. I love spending when the sale is on coz u will SAVE a lot ok?

Baju kurung checked, matching tudung and shoes checked and matching handbag checked. But then again, wouldn't be excited that much as my parents and my bro will be celebrating Eid in Liverpool. So no salam mohon maaf di pagi raya, no going for eid prayers together with them. Looks like i've just got to do it on skype! I mean, the salam mohon maaf part only la..LOL

Missing them terribly already. Nonetheless, I'm glad that i have my loving grandparents, my fairygodsister and her 4 kids and my other relatives to cheer me up. Not forgetting my closest friends as well. U know who you are :)

To mama, papa and adik. Kakak rindu u all semua. Hugs and kisses

A place called Fira

2010-09-04T06:21:00.004+08:00

I googled up "SANTORINI ISLAND GREECE"

What was reading bout the place. A really beautiful place. Blue sky, blue sea. Google more about the place. JATUH CINTA ok dengan tempat ni! Read a line that made me felt super excited! And the line went like this

"Exploring Fabulous Fira"

I was like wth? Exploring me?..Read further and got to know that Fira is actually the capital of that GORJES island.

Fira - The capital of Santorini

Fira is the capital city of the island nowadays known as Santorini. This island is part of the archipelago of the Cyclades, in Greece, and one of the most interesting ones from a historic and archaeological point of view. Besides this, Santorini and Fira offer beautiful landscapes and many amazing beaches, turning this destination into an ideal one for tourists of all ages and preferences. And bla bla bla.

Definitely a thing to jot down into my bucketlist.

*MAGNIFICENT view*

Up and downs of a Monday

2010-08-31T01:28:00.010+08:00

I was at Uni today. No feeling of Monday blues or watsoever. Went to the postgrad office to get things sorted out and thinking of that running shoe that i've been eyeing for. I was kinda semangat to go hunt for it today after my uni stuffs were settled. But the happy vibes didnt last long. While i was bz getting my forms ready came a text msg from my mom that went like this..

*Adik got his Visa already.Going out now to collect it*

Well, it was all expected already but i just felt my heart dropped at that moment. He's leaving for UK as planned which is on Wednesday night. My parents are tagging along as well. I can't focus my mind right now. Im feeling totally in pieces. My raya wouldn't be fun without them here with me. We planned to go green on our hari raya oufits this year. Looks like its not important for me anymore. The spirit of raya is much dampened already.

Summit Subang-KL

These were the places i was at to hunt for my running shoe i've been eyeing for. But u knw what happens when u r to eager to look for something u like. By end of the day you wil come home dissappointed. And yes i felt dissappointed alright. But i was cheered up by someone and i was told that i could get something better then what i was looking for. Got the link about it and yup, i felt better straight away! So gonna get my running shoes custom made! Woohoo!.

But.. i couldn't get the colors right yet for it. Gotto re-design it before making the order next week

Oh oh,

SELAMAT HARI MERDEKA!

Blood is Thicker Than Water

2010-08-29T10:28:00.003+08:00

My one and only brother. He can either make me laugh till my stomach explode or he can really annoy me until i could just slap his face off. Haha.

He's leaving for UK in 4 days and i'm gonna miss him BADLY =(

I love you adik. Study hard and make us proud.

Ramblings of inner thoughts

2010-08-28T11:16:00.005+08:00

Sigh, what is wrong with the internet connection lately. It’s so slow. Macam Siput. I bet that siput also can move faster. Tsk. Anyway, below are the few things that are on my mind now so here goes..

1. At this point of time last week, I was running with 25 avid runners. How i wished that I’m THERE with them having fun running. But since i got BANNED from doing so due to some incident last week, here i am now blogging while grumbling to myself on the punishment i have to face.

2. I’m counting days. My brother is leaving for UK to further his studies for 2 years. Mom and dad will be there with him for 2 months to help him settle down. I’m gonna my miss adik. Well, yea, he can get onto my nerves sometimes but i guess i’m gonna miss him so bad *teary mode*. I bet that i’m SO gonna cry at the airport next week when i send him off. Aku ni Nampak je garang but very emotional inside. Like the malay saying that goes “luar je Nampak ganas, tapi dalam hati ad ataman” *rempit style yaw* HAahah.

3. Committed to something serious. Will have to devout myself for 3 months for this. Insya-Allah all goes well. AMIN

4. Treated my brother today for buka puasa. Iriz, A-a and my dear Zaihan joined us too. Had a great buka puasa and dessert session with them. Conversation started off with me being “missing” last week, cracking up stupid jokes to Lady Gaga and the Iluminati society and finally ended up with intellectual discussion . Pure quality time with the people whom i know care about me. Alhamdulillah

5. Sometimes we tend to forget that there are unfortunate people out there. We tend to complain, grumble and being greedy without realising it and that does not exclude me from doing so. Have we actually sat and thought of the ones who are not being able to taste the luxury we have in life? Have you ever shared the luxury you have with the needy ones? I mean like contributing something good to the society? It does not matter whether it is of monetary based but also other aspects. Felt proud of my juniors in MSU for their effort of organizing buka puasa events with the orphans and even distributing food to those living on the streets for sahur. Such a noble thing to do. Keep those efforts going. I think i should do something for the society as well.

6. Only 6km of running this week. Will have to try to run another 6kms more.

7. I’m still vague on my future career life. My heart says to be academician. I’m not sure. Or am I being unconfident about it? I really have to think hard on this one.

8. Had a meeting with my Supervisor last Wednesday. Were discussing on my thesis, my future career plans. He was asking me whether if i was willing to work outside kl. and i said " sure y not?" then he asked me..."when do u plan to get married?" *long pause*.....hahaha

Read something on FB awhile ago. Hm, don't know what to feel now.

In the mood for new shoes

2010-08-24T22:27:00.004+08:00

So in the mood for new shoes now. Nope, not high heels, or ballerina flats or wedges or any of those kinds. But i'm simply in the mood for new running shoes, specifically for race usage. The one i have now i fine but its more for my training purposes.Will go hunt for it maybe 1 week before raya. What I'm having in mind is a new pair of Adidas.I want to get the feel of the new pair for my upcoming running events. Excited ni. ;)

Never knew that running can excite me so much. It's like a little girl getting a new Barbie or a little boy getting a new toy truck. LOL

I think i'm falling in love with this. Macam comel sebab color dia comel. But sure pricey. Sigh.. Gotto save up!

adiZero Tempo

*so gonna dream of you.hahaha*

Retail Therapy and Luahan Hati Session

2010-08-23T15:10:00.002+08:00

I was out today. Was supposed to see my Supervisor yang berjaya but his PA YM-ed me and said that my appointment with him was cancelled as he was not feeling very well. My supervisor yang berjaya is the Deputy Dean of the Medical Faculty. So just imagine yourself having a supervisor like him. You automatically want to be just as successful like him. Tapi sayang la, he's single. Hmm..

Anyway, back to the title of the post. Since the appointment cancelled. I decided to call the person in charge in BLUINC to collect my prize. Oh, i won a 4d/3n stay at a resort in Phuket. It was a contest i got myself into by completing a not more than 30 words slogan. I really thought that the slogan was too cheezy that i would make the reader puke!. Hahah. But i guess it was all worth the effort. Or maybe my postcard was really pretty that the judges had to make me the 3rd prize winner. Hahaha. Nonetheless, THANKS SHAPE MAGAZINE, WOTIF.COM and BLUINC!

Headed to Shah Alam. Made a plan with a dear friend, E.J (bukan nama sebenar). Beliau sgt baik hati untuk temankan me pegi window shopping. Time tu jugak la, sesi luahan hati bermula. I was telling E.J what i felt inside me, what was bothering me and more. I don't know why E.J was chosen to hear all of my ramblings. Guess that we RARELY see each other and i asssume that telling it to a "stranger" was best for me kot?. E.J, if u are reading this, kau bukan la stranger yang macam duduk kat bus stop tu. but the "stranger" word i associate with you comes in a different meaning tau, macam silent reader blog aku la kan. Hahah. Mungin sebab kita punyai niat and hajat hati yang sama. Tapi aku dan kau punyai dua situasi yang berlainan. Lepas raya ni kau kena pegi running dengan aku ok. Outdoor running will rock your socks i tell u!

Bought a new dress today. Tot of changing my style plak. Asik pakai jeans and pants je. My mom sure happy. Hiks. Next thing to hunt is a nice white cardigan. Hmm,maybe a pair of new running shoes too. That one i have to consult/go hunt with the expert..If the $$ permits. then sure...Why not? ;)

To E.J. Thanks :)

Ramadhan and Running

2010-08-22T13:58:00.004+08:00

" Bulan puasa pun u pegi running jugak ke fira"

A normal question asked by my family and friends. And my answer is " Yes, tapi tak la hardcore running".Anyway, since the fasting month started, i've targeted to run 1okm per week which is to only run like 3km, 3 times per week but i guess so far i've run more than that which is to me a good thing to challenge myself. My runs are normally done after iftar normally around 930pm for 1/2 hour. But since it sometimes rain on certain nights, therefore i'll run more to cover the KMs.

Anyway, last Friday's night run was one of THE best ever. 25 avid runner including myself ran for 20km. Hhaha. Tak penah la i go for training sampai 20km, paling jauh pun 10km je. It was pure fun sebab lari beramai2. But then again the weather that night was kinda warm and i got thirsty most of the time. Nasib baik la this people stop by at 7-Es along the way to beli air.Oh ya, this fun run started at 11pm and finished at 2.30pm.LOL. Everyone was so semangat for the 1st 15km of the run.After that semput, i started to walk as i was experiencing cramps at my calves. Otot2 ku terkejut kot sebab tak penah train this far, bulan puasa some more.ish ish.

Got home real late and my family and friends tot i was gone missing.LOL.lawak la korang ni. Sorry la!. I forgot to bring my hp and it was my mistake for not informing anyone about this 20km instead of the 8km usual runs *grins*. And because of this, i am BANNED from joining night training anymore. *sobs sobs*.

Overall, everyone had fun. Thanks to my juniors from my former college for the invitation. I admire the enthusiasm you all have. I am very proud. Keep the running spirit going.

To SA@KR, thanks so much for the support and advice. Being able to run side by side is such a big motivation for me (Sorry la eh kalau my pace sgt slow macam siput for you).Hope to be just as good.

I will never stop running, even i have to run in my heels.I mean,literally.Haha

Bila hati rasa tak kena

2010-08-18T16:00:00.004+08:00

Today. The 8th day of Ramadhan

Lately tak tau la kenapa rasa always not right. I'm just feeling so mixed up la. Or maybe im just thinking TOO MUCH that i'm feeling so mixed up. Or, maybe i'm under major anxiety that is making me to NOT think smartly. Or is maybe that i'm to friggin' stressed up that i just need to just chill?. SAY WHAT? APE ITU CHILL?

I went running last night 2 1/2 hours after Iftar. 27mins of ME TIME. Ran to clear my mind, my thoughts, my feelings, my soul and to get a figure of MEGAN FOX *tgh berlari pun boleh berangan macam tu..see how messed up my mind is?*. The feeling was good. The feeling 0f 27 mins of running that gave me that "high". But it was just for 27 mins. Should have added up another 27mins yesterday. But it rained soon the minute i reached home. The 28th minute.

Again, why am I feeling so messed up?. I should be calm this holy month. Not to be feeling this way. I think FB stinks. What i see, what i read there sometimes can either be inspirational or will only de-motivate me. I think i should just get disconnected with it. I think life was much simpler when 13 years back. But why 13 years back?. No hps. Public phone je ada kalau emergency. Internet wasnt that advanced as today. NO FB, NO MYSPACE, NO FRIENDSTER. Only MIRC. lagi best. Just chat. Tak payah jumpa. Tak perlu post gambar.Hahah.

Time skola rendah plg tak best sebab selalu disisihkan because i was big and fat.Time skola menengah paling best. Takde sape tau pasal time skola rendah i yang tak berapa best.Bila ada extra koko jer paling excited.2-3 times in a week sure stay back sbb ada extra curricular. Pegi sekolah, balik sekolah. Tu la rutin hari2.Malam pegi tuition. Takpun curi2 tgk tv kejap padahal weekdays tidak dibenarkan tgk tv. Petang kena pegi naik basikal tak pun pegi usha budak2 hot kat skola main bola. Kalau hujan petang tgk drama cina kat tv3. sampai taksub dibuatnya. Takpun tgk citer Lasurpadora tak pun Mis Tres Hermanas

Time skola, saya pengawas. Tapi pengganas.Buat spot-check rampas liquid paper murid2 (tapi bagi balik sebab liquid paper sebenarnya berguna untuk betulkan spelling bila menyalin nota dalam buku rampaian. Bukan untuk conteng kain baju kurung or conteng meja tulis "I love you backstreet boys" or "I love you Cikgu X" dan sebagainy. Takpun guna LP untuk conteng kat dinding toilet dengan perkataan2 seperti "sohai" "cibai" dan sebagainya (opppss, sorry tulis bukan2 time bulan puasa sebab tu fakta dan bukan auta.ahah)

Masuk silat, jadi naib kapten rumah hijau (skuad kawad saya selalu menang.ahah), masuk kelab pencegah jenayah yang ntah pape. Semua jawatan yang atas2 nak bolot je. Yela, sape tak nak jadi femes kat skola..Hahah.. Bila ada event je, suka sgt jadi MC. Cikgu2 suka kot?. Tak kisah la orang kata gila kuasa ke apeHaha. Janji keluar dari sekolah rasa macam cemerlang. Cemerlang ke?. Bila result SPM kluar, baru la tau cemerlang ke tak. Tapi ok la kan, dapat gak masuk U tetiba downgrade masuk College. Dapat keje kejap and now dapat masuk U balik. OK la kan. Tapi kenapa i masih rasa tak kena *ala mode ngomel2?*

Mungkin Pra-simptom bulanan kot?.Uishh..gila melampau

Takpun rasa macam ni sebab umo dah bukan 13, lots of responsibilities. Nak kena jaga hati orang tu orang ni. Tersilap kata and langkah nanti dikata tak kenang budi pulak kan. Tapi nk buat macam mana..Sabar je la kan. Paling kuat nak buat pun is just to put on my running shoes and just go run. Dapat la rasa "high" tu kejap, dapat la 'lari' kejap dari prob.Hmm..macam2 problem yang melanda skrg. Antaranya studies, keluarga, hati dan perasaan. Pastu datang plak feelings on envious bila nampak cousin sebaya/ lagi muda keje gempak, drive kereta yang ada logo VW tu. Amacam? Takpun bila tgk junior kita yang tgh buat masters submit thesis dia dulu dari kita.Amik kauu.Rasa tertekan tak?. Tgh puasa pun rasa macam tak puasa tau. Silap haribulan nak beraya pun tak kuasa tau.Tapi takpe, tu mungkin semua dugaan and cabaran so that i could challenge myself to be the best. *kata2 nak bakar semangat la kononnya*

So tu la dia. tak penah2 la aku nak post blog macam ni la kan. My posts have positive vibes most of the time. But i guess not today and guess i've just poured out what i felt inside.

Bila hati rasa tak kena, inilah jadinya

Got SNAP ATTACK(ed)!

2010-08-03T22:00:00.003+08:00

Thanks SNAP ATTACK!

Event: Shape/Men's Health Night Run 2010

Shape/Men's Health Nite Run

2010-08-01T00:03:00.005+08:00

Run was good. I managed to clock in my personal best for 12.3KM. Made a mistake by setting my Nike plus sportband before stepping on the D-Tag sensor thingy and total distance of running showed by my nike plus wasn't the same as the actual running distance. aiyo..i was so kelam kabut maybe that time. Came late, started late some more. Was aiming for top 75 to get the medal. But what to do la kan, as wat the malay saying goes "Takde rezeki la tu" Managed to run with a pace of 5.45mins/km which i felt happy about as i trained with that pace most of the time. The route wasn't a flat one as we had to run on bridges and a few inclines were experienced here and there. My running was interrupted with the constant thirst i was experiencing hence the short stop for water at each water station (i should have just bawak my hydration belt but was too lazy :p.next time is a must!).

Overall it was good. I think i managed to finished 12.3km at 1 hour and 10mins. Yet to find out the official time when SHAPE/MEN'S HEALTH post the results on the website. This run is my last running competition to make way for bulan puasa. But the running routing will not stop today and that's for sure. Insya-Allah :)

Oh, thanks to the boyfie for the support and thanks to Jamie, Taufek and and my running mate for this event for sharing the excitement with me :)

To the organizers, i think you guys did a great job overall *though i think u should more people at the water station*. Goodie bag is sangat best :)

Will definitely join the event again nex year.

Zattera Apparel

2010-07-18T22:13:00.004+08:00

I attended my cuzin's wedding reception last week. Was seeking for a suitable dress to match the theme color. Thanks to Mira, boutique owner of Zattera Apparel for sponsoring my outfit. She totally solved my problem and the headache caused by searching high and low for THE DRESS. ME LOVED IT!

Cik Fira on the left and her cuzin who flew all the way from Spain to celebrate the event. Head wear (Pashminas bought from Berjaya Times Square, Clutch bag from Asos )

And not forgetting THE SHOE to complete the look

5 inch peeped-t0e platforms with bow details (spt tak kelihatan bow itu.hehe). From Asos too.

Definitely not made for walking/dancing.

BHP ORANGE RUN

2010-07-11T20:58:00.003+08:00

My BIB number

My 4th running event this year

Event: BHP Orange Run 2009
Venue: Piazza, The Curve, Selangor
Date: 25th July 2010
Time: 7.15am

Distance: 11KM

Anyone else joining?. Put your hands up high in the air if u are!

New Loves

2010-07-11T18:04:00.006+08:00

The 3 things im in love with right now

Advanced birthday give from the boyfie . An 8GB purple iPod nano

Peep-toe laced up oxford heels from Ferriswheel and fuschia pink peep toe platforms with bow detail from Asos

RAWR! Haha

Ramblings and Thoughts of An Urban Yuppie

Before i say goodbye

Here I am again

A wish For you

Sacrifice

Yang Sebenarnya

In the end

From ZERO to HERO

Nausea attack

That day

suka duka

yang terjadi semalam dan harini

sleepless nights

From a far

Kacau Bilau

One after another

1km further

UPM- Alamanda- Shah Alam

15th Feb

Hope all is well

unwell

Dissapointment

Yesterday's run

My first Half Marathon Attempt

Got Tagged

words to ponder and (wonder)

Phuket Trip- The long awaited post

a year wiser

Busy bee mode starts next week

the final night

the island cruise

Away for 3 nights

Billy Brocklesby

Bukan pelari tegar

Zodiac Sign

I'm a Leo

July 23 to August 22

Strengths

ConfidentAmbitiousGenerous ,LoyalEncouraging

Weaknesses

PretentiousDomineeringMelodramaticStubbornVain

Leo and Independence:

Leo and Friendship:

Leo in a Nutshell:

What it's like to date a Leo Woman? (ehem, jeng jeng hahaha)

Yang terjadi hari ini

Chick #207

Sometimes goodbyes are good

to stop blogging for the time being

The need of motivation for the passion/s we have

"At times, u just need that someone or something that has got to do with your passion to get you motivated back again"

My rendition of Eat, Pray, Love

Dah baik, finally

back to life back to reality

last hours in Liverpool

2011

The few last days here

Resolutions 101

Purple Tiger

Fira Tirona Santarina

Jalan-jalan UK-Manchester

Running with the snow all over

1st snow experience

Running in the cold

Minster Court and City Central

Hello Liverpool!

Monkey Love

8 December 2010

The Unproductive Week

What i feel inside

Langkah bendul

Missed it!

Emotion

Everybody needs a little time away

Our Food Blog

Hilang Konsentrasi

Food blog

Inspiring

Concern

All Cried Out

Confident
Ambitious
Generous ,Loyal
Encouraging

Pretentious
Domineering
Melodramatic
Stubborn
Vain